Lifeless holidays

It's holidays now, it should be great, but it seems way too boring here in an island. There's nothing much to do. Shop? Oh no. Diving? Oh no. Picnic? Oh no.  

My daily routine has be, wake up - eat - watch movie - sleep, or wake up - outing - sleep. That is sooooooo lifeless. 

Well, recently, there are some business projects coming up. Hopefully, it would make my current life a lil bit meaningful. It's gonna be a huge project for me. I am just finger crossing that this proposal gonna be real and successful. It's my dream come true. 

Ermm. Thanks god. Things are getting better and better now. How I wish time could be turned back and memories could be remained. So, every time when we did something wrong, it could be get back to the original and have a good beginning again.

Previously, I've done a lot of mistakes in my life. A lot. But no regret. Those are the greatest memories that I could tell my future grandchildren. Well, i think they will be proud of me and think that their grandma was sooo sooo cool. Honestly, she was cool. HAHA.

By the way, I'd hope that people stop relating between us. It's an end. Most importantly, he has his new shoes and  I have my own life now. That is a completely different world. Whenever I met the same person, what I heard is 'Eh bla bla is not coming ah' 'Eh go and find your bla bla lah'. Oh dude, come on. Grow up please. It's soooo sooo annoying to hear the same name, the same sentences. The Hong Kong drama that you were watching live was over. So please, move your ass and stop talking about it. 

I'm just so pissed when people start relating the nonsense. It's has been almost 3 months. 

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這一年來的每一天

考完試了，是時候把疲累的自己把步調放下，用心好好去感受每一樣即將結束的東西。中學生活已經是個歷史，眼前的是，好多好多的分叉路。不同的道路，前往著的方向或許一樣。但是，目的地卻不一樣。殘忍的是，只要選者了，就沒有退路。錯了，就是錯了。

這一年來，發生了好多意想不到的事情。有時候，真的很感謝主，讓我在這麼年輕的時候就有個那麼精彩的人生故事。代價或許是淚與苦，但是這一切都值得。

我的故事，就像把好多部偶像劇的高潮結合一起，拼出的一部電影。這部屬於我的電影好精彩。我是唯一的觀眾，唯一的演員，也是唯一的導演。電影票是，真心的淚與笑。

我不曾後悔做出錯的選擇。只要選者了，就要為自己的決定付出代價，附上該有的責任，一切都是遊戲裡的規則。我也不想讓任何人對我存有可憐的心態，所以我只能堅強得面對，雖然很難，但是我知道我一定可以。對我來說，只要在人前留下一滴眼淚，那就代表了，自己是個弱者。

現在，時常會有好幾個人都會用很諷刺的話語和眼神，雖然很累，很累，但是無論如何都必須逼自己習慣這樣的場合。因為，我和別的女生來的更要堅強。

感謝主讓我有力量渡過這一年來的每一天，波折好多好多，可是謝謝你給我這一部這麼好的電影，謝謝您！

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Holidays!

Have great memories in these 2 months time. Aww! I'm so excited that our drama got first in the state competition. It means that we are going to the National level! Sadly, the National level is held in KK. I thought it's suppose to be in KL or somewhere in WM.

Finally after two weeks of study-at-eleventh-o'clock, the exam was over. We are having holidays now! Yeah!

Goodnight

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Just, it is.

April in 2012 is going to end soon. Time pass extremely fast. Last year of my high school life is almost coming to an end. 30+ of the students are going to separate to each different part of this world.

Living in parent's world for 17 years shall come to an end. You know, this day may come. But, you just don't know how you wish it doesn't happen.

Goodnight. 💋

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Blog dead HAHA

Just got back from Jenny's birthday an hour ago. Doing nothing browsing around the Internet. Just remembered that I've left my blog dead. It's April now! And we are heading to May a couple weeks later. Can you believe it? No, I can't! 

It's just too too too fast for me. I thought the Bersih 2.0 activity was just few months ago, but indeed it was on the 9th of July, 2011. OMG!! It's been nearly a year. Well, just for your information, the next Bersih 2.0 activity will be on the 28th of April, 2012. 

I've lost my soul in these few months. To be exact, it is more than 'few' in English grammar term. Doing nothing everyday except for classes and tuitions, business was left behind, just lie on the bed once i got back home...etc. I always have a reason for myself - time for rest, Paula. And with this reason, everything was left behind, everything. As a result, they were ruined at last. 

I thought it gonna be better once I got back from my holidays. Somehow, it goes to the contrast way. Insomnia for the every nights. To make it better, I need to have my iPod on when I sleep. It's just tough. 

Celebrated mum's birthday on this Tuesday. Actually I decided to plan a surprise for her, somehow it was a fail. The mood-less body made my laziness. I called to the restaurant instead of went there myself. I told them i was going to celebrate my mum's birthday there and I hope there was something special for her. I asked for the decorations and cake as well. Everything on that night was just perfect. The decorations were just like what I expected it to be, the cake tasted special instead of nice, the food was good. 

Finally, one of my wish-list has been done. I love you Mum, Grandpa&Grandma, Auntie Mimi&Uncle Ben and Uncle Hen. I feel so so so proud to be one of the member of this little tiny family. Everyone in the family just love me much. They will get me whatever I want. Every one of them. God will pays you back when he takes something from you. It might not be the best, but i'm sure it is the most meaningful. 

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F My Days Please

Days are tough now. No one understand how it is. Everyone just keep pushing on you. It's pain and stressful, but who know. Things always come suddenly without telling you. You are forced to face it. In fact, with tears.


Tears are non-stop. Somehow, I believe it's just a process toward an end point. Pain can't be expressed. The only way - swallow yourself. However, as much pain as you've collected, the more powerful you are - this is what I'm telling myself, always.


People look on you, but they don't feel you. Instance, a Science experiment, people just focus on the conclusion instead of the steps. This is world, this is reality. You got to face it, because you are forced to.


Never stop crying, as that's the only tool you have.

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0602012

It's the last day of 2012 CNY. Un-usally, this is my first time staying at home and doing nothing. Form 5 life isn't a joke. Everything talks about pressure and stress. The worst is i haven't start some of my tuition yet. It's just the cause of laziness. Sometimes, you just wanna stay on the bed even you're not sleepy.

As I've leave my blog for more than 3months, my writing skills is also running down hill. Everything in life now is just going as it should be. Nothing special at all. 

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2011 Was Over

So, finally 2011 was over and now all of us are heading to 2020. Time flies very fast as I just realized I hadn't write my blog for 2months. These 2months in 2011 were boring enough. Apart from the KL & KK trips with buddies, the rest of the days were like hell. I couldn't feel what's meaningful of life is.

Well, let's conclude how's my 2011 went over :

1. My first holidays trip with buddies to Genting and KL.

2. Got to celebrate mum's birthday in amazing Italian restaurant which has the super duber expensive bill @ KL. 

3. Had a very ''syok'' shopping session with buddies @ KL.

4. Got to buy mum an expensive dress from ZARA which she thinks it looks ugly.

4. My first experience of participated in drama competition and got a very special award.

5. Have joined SGM dancers for performance @ KK

6. Finally I have my own webshop. Feel free to visit www.hohoegg.com.

7. My first visit to SMC for headache check and all the scanning parts experience.

8. My wonderful Bangkok trip was forced to cancel due to some reasons.

9. Achieve my 17's target earlier. Feel great about it.

Well, there's a lot more. I'm just too lazy update all of them. Laziness kills my blog.

Bye!

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