Last For 2009

Yoohho~ a few hours more gonna be a new year. Im wondering peoples in the world, actress, actor around the world, what they doing now? Isnt they excited for the coming year? Answer might be ''yes'' or ''no''.

Well, forget about it.

Happy New Year.

By Paula,
20091231 15:29P.M
Wrote down the last moment for 2009.


Unfortunely, what i wrote this afternoon are not the last moment for 2009. Im Back~! After the performance, ate with family and ling came with us. We had planned for the rest time. But, my mum spoiled our plan. She doesnt let me out. What The Hell. Send ling back and went back home. Jing called me and asked me whether can i go to her home. Argh~ i have no transport and absolutely my mum doesnt let me to go.

Im sad and tears fall~ Not because of cant go out. It is because of i have to celebrate alone again. Happy New Year to myself. Im the one who always be alone. Travel alone, celebrate alone, sad alone.... no one can share with. It's a terrible feeling and exactly no one know it.
After this year, my pressure is getting heavier and heavier. And this the last day for 2009, wondering why is my mum doesnt let me to go out? She always spoils whatever i want. Never feel happy but fear every moment in this family.

Received friends' happy new year wishes just now. LOL~ i hope it's happy too. However, i hope to be not alone again. At least give me someone that i can trust and share my sadness or happiness with her/him. <<>

The end~
Written By Paula
11:55P.M
Happy New Year

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I'm back

Yoyo~ Eventually back to this ''peaceful'' place. LOL~ Alright..had been at KK for 2days. Well, my family doesnt recognised me when i arrvied at the airport. Ridiculous man~ maybe because of my strange look and cloth. Anyway, it felt weird when you smile with someone but the person doesnt greet with you. Argh~ gained weight again. What the hell~



Erm..by the way, went out for MCD this two days after i came back. Absolutely miss the chicken porridge so much. Well, talked and had a lot of fun. Argw~ miss there so so much. Friday will be a new year, 2010. Happy New Year~!! Well, i have make a lot of plan and prepare for the coming years just because of my future dream. A huge huge future dream~ I know myself well, i not really guarantee that i can make it but at least i will try my best and never defeat until the end. Realise a lot of things that i shouldnt know while staying in Aus. Eventhough not so clear, but at least i know what happened. I just realise that why my mum always told me to be tough and dont defeat with tears. Sorry mum~ i'm wrong~ LOL

Well, that are a lot of words that i want to say. Anyway, it's hard to convert into alphabets.
Jing~ the pics u copy from here ya. cheers~ some of the pics i dint upload, too ugly~ LOL~

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Last Day

Well, i just finished packing my luggage and those important things. Today is my last day to being here and of course i have to write about my last day here as a memory.

Erm.. anyway, i have to back to the place again after a week. I have to make a recorrection here, ''i hope i wont back to the place again'' the words that i wrote in my previous post, the place mean school. Well, im sick of that school. Teachers and facilities there are so terrible.So that's why i hate it.

Erm..went to Gold Coast this morning and had my Starbuck drink there. Finally i can have Starbuck at Gold Coast and this was the third time i'm having starbuck in Australia. It's quite proud for myself. I mean it makes me happy a lot.

By the way, we back home at 11++p.m. It's kinda late. Went for late-dinner at Cafe21. Wow~ It's quite a classical place. Those security must be looking on my legs first, because im wearing sandal. Actually, people who wearing sandal cant go in. But maybe mine still look good, not so worst yet.

Going back home tomorrow~ ]
It's a lot, post them up next time
Bye Australia Bye Brisbane Bye Queensland Bye Montezumad

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A gift

Yoyo~ it's tuesday today.. so fast~ well, went for planet 51 this morning. It's boring~ Actually it is a movie for kids. Between, when we went there, i expected that it is a adults' movie. But, what i saw was there were all kids with mum. OMG~ i shouldnt come here. It looks so weird.

Anyway, Jemma gave me a gift today. OMG~i was so surprised. I like the gift so much eventhough it is small. We hug each other and i almost cry. She is the one who takes care me the most. Between, she taught and helped me a lot~

Well, nothing special happen today.

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I will gonna miss you guys so much

Yo~ is another week again.. so fast~ well, i really gonna going back this week and exactly i will gonna miss you guys so so much. It is Joey and Me, it was taken during the staffs' party. She's a taiwanese girl, eventhough her english not speak really well but she's a nice person. She said '' wah~ so high '' when i took the picture. Oh~ i like to hold my camera high when im taking picture. It is nicer..


It's me, Joey, Greg and Sambhus. Oh no~ i look more ugly and fat in this pic. Sambhus said to me and my aunt that im ''The Best TAKE-AWAY maker'' what the hell are you talking about~ LOL.. anyway~ it is better than nothing.. OMG~ i really will miss you guys so much. You guys gave me a lot of fun and took care of me so good. The greatest in the world and my life. Especially my aunt and uncle. They always make joke and it made me felt so so happy and spent me a lot. Anyway, it make me felt so comfortable and relax here. Actually i planned to come here for job and money only. But since something happened, my mood was getting worst and worst and by chance this the place thatt can let me ''escape'' and relax myself.

Well, i dont know what will gonna happen if i'm staying in Labuan now. Maybe just alone stay at home or find a job there. Boring and pressurely~

Yoo~ went for 3D AVATAR and breakfast buffet yesterday. Wow, what's a long movie is that. It's really nice but kinda boring for me. A good movie and of course it need a lot of work. I will upload the pic next time. Im lazy to get the camera now. By the way, go for ''Planet 51' tomorrow.. Oh yeah~~~

Let's say about today. Well, nothing special happen. Went for breakfast and had spaghetti as lunch at southbank today. My aunt, uncle and I had half nip of Tequila just now. Wow~ so cool.. my face is red now and im going to get drunk. wuhaha~

At the moment, i dont know what should i face when i get back to Labuan. Act as nothing and back to the origin or still continue staying alone. It's a hard question for me. I hope i wont get back to the place again. Labuan makes me so pressure and lots of fear everyday and even every moment. Alone is better than more~ I hope my mum let me to change for a new environment anyway. Erm.. i mean place. It's better and it's related to my future.

Alright~ Im going to sleep, need wake up early for planet 51 tomorrow.

Goodnight~

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Gastric

what the hell is that~ i'm having seriously gastric yesterday. I cried because of pain. It's really really pain. I called my mum and told her i had gastric again and ended up the call.
Maybe she was too worry, she called my aunt and told her that my gastric came back again.
My aunt came in my room between my uncle drove to buy some milo back. It may be helpful. By the way, i had taken 3 panadol activefast yesterday. My life must be very short.
3 pills a day~God~


Anyway this time wasnt the first time. Gastric has been one of the custom in my life. And it is so so serious. Cant sleep, cant sit, cant stand...more. Well, today im kinda happy eventhough im worrying my gastric will happen again. LOL~ served a table of friendly family.. when the old woman was ready to go, she was looking at me and i walked toward her. She said ''see you.''~ Argh.. no way..we not gonna to see each other anymore. I told her im going back soon and im not local here. Bla bla bla~

Alright~i asked her some questions. Suddenly, the guy who sat with her come toward us and the old woman told me that he is her grandson and bla bla bla~ Wow.. he hug me and kissed my face..OMG~ what the hell is that..dont they are too friendly~ But anyway, im happy of that, not because of the kiss but it means that they were satisfy with my service. Between, they treated me like local and not like 'anti asian'. I think it will be my most unforgetten memory in my life. LOL~

Well, after reach home, chat with my aunt for 2hours. Mostly we chat is about my future. I told my aunt what is the plan for my future and dream. LOL~ she said she's proud of me and didnt expect that i will think for that. It's mature~ anyway just forget about it.

All hopes from my family are over me. They expect me to get good education in the future no matter how expensive the fees are. I know they love me so much. What i wanted, they bought for me and just because of i like it when i was kid. Now, i'm not kid anymore. Eventhough i do not have the ability to pay for all my expenses but i'm trying harder to earn money by myself.

LOL~im touched when i had gastric yesterday. My mum was so so so worry and keep calling my aunt and asked for my situation. I think that i should go for the specialist and have some body check, otherwise my life must be so short.

Goodnight~

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Days --

Days gone really fast. Well, i'm coming back soon and back to the origin again. Oh God.. i hate it. Just change for a month, that's not fun. By the way, stay in this big city for a few weeks. Realise that i had became one of them. A busy road, busy street, busy footwalk...

That's no any disadvantage to stay here but maybe except those living costs. Anyway, it is paid by week and high salary. That's not a problem.

Oh.. think for the next year, i worry about that so much. Hope to continue staying and study here. But thats impossible.

Oh yeah~ today is my last day for diet. Actually it may be tomorrow, but because of it is too too too busy, we change it to today. Between, i had loose for 2kgs. That is so so much.. WTH~ Back to the normal instead of nothing.

Tomorrow work for whole day. OMG~ Tired.. need awake early..

ps: 李美～ 我的興趣不是讀書。有沒有搞錯啊～LoL

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Nothing Else Can Replace It

Well, i realise that i write my blog everyday since dont know when is the day. Oh yeah, today is my 2nd day for diet. Still the same, only have wholemeal bread and fruits whole the day.

I was addicted in beauty since i came here. It is maybe saw a lot of taiwanese girl here. Erm.. took a lot of pics this few days. Im wonder why. It started suddenly and end lazily. Oh.. i think about him suddenly in my mind. I remebered my first time met him was when im primary 5 during the J-kids camp. Im keep looking at him until the program end. It's crazy. Now, he still the same, lovely and is welcoming by girls. Well, im one of them im think. LOL. I just recognised the boy is him this year when he passed by.

Erm.. i knew some of his stories from friends and i was shocked when i heard it. Erm.. i know that i cant replace for the place and i wonder why how are you guys break up so easily. It is not easy to been together but why just end up so easily? I remembered the moment. Well, eventhough it's only a moment but instead of nothing. Im really apperciate it. Really really~

I felt strange when i wrote these but these are the truth anyway. I hope the person is you.

ps: just ignore about my pic

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changing

Im trying harder and harder to change myself to become better and better in the future. I know, beauty is not all. But anyway, beauty is also a part that is important in life. People look you down when u are ugly or cant even find a good guy. Many many more..

The top picture is kinda ugly.. please ignore about it. Actually, i have nothing to write today. Just write about my first day diet.

I only can have fruits and wholemeal bread as my meals. How pity am i~ Well, it only has to work for 5days, it's pretty better anyway. But because of body, it's worth. The pill doesnt taste nice, it more tastes like herba. It's disgusting~

Had video call with my mum a moment ago. I talked about money with my mum suddenly. I just realise that how heavy my mum's pressure is. No one can understands it. A woman whom only own a small grocery shop has to pay for all the expenses. Im sad for that, and sometimes bothersome for the question.

My mum really know me very much. She packed my luggage before i departed. She know what thing i need and those cosmetics. She even prepared a small size bottle lotion for me just in case of i want to use it. Well i didnt use lotion. She packed my make-up remover , toner, hairband, foundation and many more. And because of this, she bought me a new luggage bag, watch, few of clothes,shoes and bags. We seldom waste money of these things. And it just only because of im going to work. Even sometimes i shouted at her when i lazy to talk with her, she doesnt cares about it. She even tries to make joke in front of me to let me happier. When i said 'oh no~im fat', my mum always say u not and give me some comfort. I got a bad result this year and my ranking is worse than last year. My mum really cares about my ranking in the final examination, but this year she doenst say anything and just comfort me with try harder next year. I know she doesnt say anything because of she know my mood havent change better yet. And just comfort me more and more.


By the way,next year will be my PMR examination. It's suck, no freedom for me.

I LOVE YOU MUM

i love you more than you love me~LOL

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PARTY + DIET

Had our staff chirstmas party today at Sono Japanese Restaurant..
what a great restaurant is that.. wonderful decoration..

before leaving home on 9am in the morning
what the hell is tht~ got up at 8am~
it's tired!very very super tired
went to the MYER and found for the photo album
finally bought it and drove back to the restaurant
walked down to the china street's market and bought a few clothes
it's pretty cheap and tired
i keep sweating when im choosing the clothes
it made me so uncomfortable
then walked back to the restaurant and waiting guys to come
by the way.. after edited the photos in photo scape..
quality of the photos is not good as the original

while sitting in the car..it's kinda boring
and again i past through the Lamborghini's show room
it's same.. awesome!
took some pics in the car~ it looks different with others especially the top one..
Oh no.. my face still look like Malaysian
i want it to be look like Japanese
when can i reach the target~

while playing the puzzle game
it was a competition.. who get the first will get 5OAUD MYER Voucher as reward
we all were concentrated in the puzzle just only because of the reward
it's looked funny right~

I had done mine~ it looked fanstatic isnt~

it actually is 3+ ages game
but..anyway~ it's kinda hard~
after done all the games..
wuuhhu~ meals were coming in..

Gonna start my Detox diet plan tomorrow..
hope that i can reduce for 5kgs
im tired now.. continue tomorrow~!

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13 of Dec

It's 13 Dec 2009 Saturday today.. I have been here for a few weeks.. going back soon..
Wow.. time past quickly.. anyway i dont want to go back.. i want to study here..
but anyway it's impossible ..need wait for the couple years again..
Damn~

我不美， 但却很努力得再改变自己
我没钱， 但却很努力得打工赚零钱
我不瘦， 但却满努力得在减肥

就是为了将来想要变个有智慧的美女

Chat with a woman today while im cleaning the table..
it's amazing~
it is my first time to talk so long with a local..
by the way..im getting fatter and fatter once i came here
keep eating and having snack..less exercise..

生活需要目标，因为目标才有方向
失去了方向，就该鼓起勇气寻找下个目标
这才是人生

Bowling centre of Brisbane~WOW.. definitely different if compare with Malaysia..~

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TIRED

LOL~ video calling with my mum.. save more money~ first time took pic with teeth in this year.. my mum looks younger in these pics..~ i will try harder on my nose.. my target~!! Ohyeah~ so that my mum wont look me down anymore~..

Work whole day today.. OMG~ it's very very very super tired~ Read someone's blog just now.. im envy with those people who fall in love with the guy which they are love each other.. Me~ LOL? It never happen before.. since im born till now..

Last few days~ went for supper.. that's a chinnese restaurant~most of the customers are taiwanese.. by the way~ Malaysia's mandarin is extremely different if compare with taiwan's~ i very caution what are they talking about.. suddenly a guy said ''OMG''~ he sound the OMG exactly big difference~ it sounds funny.. [ 哦～马尔～咖呃 ]


OMG~ my english doesnt improve yet..wth~

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NO LOVE

Steve Jobs is the co-founder and CEO of Apple and Pixar.

“Innovation distinguishes between a leader and a follower.” by -Steve Jobs. Steve Jobs, is also known as one of the man who can upstaged Bill Gates but anyway he is not as rich as him. Knowledge and money aren't all. He told about his story when he's young during Stanford Commencement Speech 2005.

I wondered who is the CEO for Apple Co before. A best technology company with all the high tech.

WOW~ hope to be like him one day.~



[ Erm.. feel so pressure this few days~ not because of work.. i wonder what is the purpose..]
[ A woman when fall in love with a guy..she can do anything just only because of him..]
[ Maybe have sex.. or maybe escape from home or others.. she, didnt realise that words from the guy are all fake.. ]
[ I fall in love with a guy who definitely not belong to me.. no communicate between us..]
[ Never face to face and even words.. but thats doesnt matter~]
[ Love, doesnt mean need communicate, face to face or...]

read from a girl who wrote these from a chinese forum..

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DEC

The bird is standing by to eat this starving child. This picture was voted as the best the best journalistic photography many years ago. And the photographer later committed suicide because of his emotional breakdown attaching to his own work.

fantastic~what will you feel when you are there~

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Y U P Z

행복한

Erm im quite lazy to write blog these few days.. eventhough i saw a lot of new things that i hope for.. oh yeah~ yesterday saw a ferrari 599~ wow..AWESOME.. last few days past by LAMBORGHINI show room.. OMG.. unbelievable.. since that moment.. im fall in love with it.. i'm keep cautioning the owner of the ferrari.. WOW~ he looks smart.. but age is quite old.. erm..looks kinda like a boss or manager.. anyway~ im shocked when im passing by the lamborghini show room.. the designs of those cars are so fanstastic.. i wonder why that's guys' dream..

Wow.. it's great to saw those new things that i never been seen in Malaysia.. oh yeah~ went to David John with my aunt yesterday..wow~all brand stores there.. we went to the Estee Lauder section and look for the nails colour for my grandma.. wow~ expensive man~ saw a set gift~ it's kinda not bad~ finaly we bought it.. by the way~ i plan to buy a new handphone here.. sony ericson T707~ it's my style.. but i worry about its funtions~ mum said i can buy it but~ aikz..all money fault~

I had spent a lot of money on clothes and snacks..

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H A

행복한

Im exhausted this few days.. eventhough only work for the night and only a few hours.. BUT dont know why im tired of that.. but sometimes do NOT..

LOL.. last few days.. served a table of LESSBIAN.. for me, they look lessbian.. so just categorised them as lessbian.. after putting down the meals.. one of them asked me.. 'are u JAPANESE' i said 'NO.. im malaysian..' maybe they didnt hear that and said 'ALIGATO' i repeated im not~ and then they asked me ''korean?'' i said NO.. next ''taiwanese?'' i said NO again.. and said im MALAYSIAN and walk away.. haha.. WUUHUU~ last night of the day.. im just kidding im JAPANESE in FB~ wow..

By the way.. i want to recommend some food to you guys.. im really LOVE that~

the POCKY strawberry flavour biscuits and the pudding~

the pictures at the bottom

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DAY 5

日5

It is my fifth day being here.. It's quite fun~ just back from the cinema for 2012.. it's COOL.. UNBELIEVEABLE! went for FERRIS WHEEL last night after work~ it's great but kinda boring.. bought a lot of snack this morning.. MACBOOK WHITE here is cheaper than malaysia.. it's about 1299$AUS~ convert to malaysia it might be RM3000+.. i dont know what's the price in malaysia.. but for me it is CHEAP~ i just realise that MANY asians here..

WUUHUU~ going to DREAMLAND tomorrow.. anyway im READY for it~!

By the way..nothing special this few days..just upload some pictures for you guys~





【changing clothes after work 】






【Just back from the cinema just now】

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DAY 2

第2日

It is my second day being in Brisbane.. reach here LAST night.. OHH~ the plane was horrible.. it's shaking!! waited for my aunt about 30 mins in the airport.. たわごと on the way.. we were lost.. OHH~

Had a video call with my mum last night before i sleep.. she asked me SOOOO much.. and my grandpa is SILLY.. he called to my aunt's handphone and asked a lot of SILLY questions..

Just reach home from work.. it is extremely tired.. went to SOUTH BANK at the afternoon and took some photos there..

GOOD BYE

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LOL

自己によって住みなさい

what a BAD luck i have these few days.. my msn, facebook and friendster account were HACKED by someone else.. chat with the HACKER last night using my mum msn id.. OHH~ quite funny~ i lie him that i could report police if he still continue doing what he is.. 경찰

[ conversation with the hacker ]

(6:24 PM) LoN3LyBoYY:	halo
(6:24 PM) HOHO:	yaya?
(6:25 PM) LoN3LyBoYY:	你能帮我一件事吗
(6:25 PM) HOHO:	sure.. wt thng ne?
(6:25 PM) LoN3LyBoYY:	你能借我msn一下吗
(6:26 PM)	LoN3LyBoYY just sent you a nudge.
(6:26 PM) LoN3LyBoYY:	可以吗
(6:26 PM) HOHO:	huh? y?
(6:26 PM) LoN3LyBoYY:	我想跟朋友拿回facebook
(6:27 PM) HOHO:	y cnt use own msn a?
(6:27 PM) LoN3LyBoYY:	他不回我啦
(6:28 PM) HOHO:	bt my tz msn al contact vry important d owh
(6:29 PM) LoN3LyBoYY:	我知道我不会乱动的 你借我五分钟
(6:30 PM) HOHO:	okok

After few minutes..i try to sign in my msn but my password was requested and there was an error.. OHH~ SH*T ~ i should not lend this guys my msn id and password.. Night~ i used my mum msn chat with him..

I scolded a lot of rude words.. the guys said 'if you wanna get back ur password..then you need to have a video call with me..' 'WHAT?! Why i should believe you?How about if you reneging on what u had promised?' The guy said 'OK~if that.. i have no idea'

OHH~~what a lame guys is this.. after few minutes.. i said 'Do you believe i can get your IP address and report to police?' he said ''Im using card'' [ it's mean that he is using a type of reload card ] i said 'Owh~ok.. if you're using card.. so mean that you're in cyber cafe..' ''You're smart~yupz..you are right~but u can only get my IP.. u can't check for my information.. police cant find me out'' 'Ok~let's say.. even though i just only can get your IP..but i can find which cyber cafe you're.. with that.. i know which computer you used and that's the way i get your information~'

The guy said '' anyway..i can destroy your msn if you do that''
''So what's the way you gonna destroy it?''
'I will delete all the contact list and block this id'
''Owh~okok..just do whatever you want.. the person who lost not me.. but for you.. ur IC will gonna reported as crime record..that's worth''

He signed out when i'm looking for the IP~LOL

I downloaded many password finder but it's not work..call to MSN customer service but failed

I told this to my mum~LOL..


THE END

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WU HA !

정규 여아의 세계

Changed my profile's song just now.. wuuha~ i like IT .. finally found my ipod and those BLA BLA things.. ready the things that i wanna bring.. OHH.. it seems that i'm moving home..anyway.. HOPE so.. erm.. nothing special 특별한 today.. looked for the money お金 changer and went to the pos office..

I LOVE the song.. 'Through The Rain' by Mariah Carey.. the lyric is extremely saying what im thinking..NO one care about you

IM TIRED

GOODNIGHT EVERYONE!

おやすみなさい

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I'M BACK !

通常の女の子の世界

oh yeah~ edited my layout just now..not too NICE.. but I LIKE IT.. erm.. i thought after exam will be nice days.. however.. things were HAPPENED too.. 大丈夫です planned many activities for those days .. but now.. those plans are such rubbish maybe.. 우물 this few days went out with mum and bought a lot of new things..

a GIANT size LUGGAGE กระเป๋าเดินทางa a NEW watch lot of CLOTHES

recently my mum was ADDICTED in buying and searching clothes from web
she would says '' show me the clothes again'' ''any NEW stocks today'' ''have u banked to the seller?'' if i say NO and she will say ''when are u gonna banked in? we only have LIMITED time now'' OH~ what a weird mum i have ハハ

YA.. maybe i have only limited time from now on..

bubye!

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T A R G E T !!

Oh no~
My dream world~!
Dubai
One night for RM81,120 (S$33800)
UNBELIEVABLE!

6 Star~!

wow!

Toilet~

Kitchen

There's a kitchen Wahseh

Oh~ Room view~

Downstair

5星级旅游车 外观

這個叫做RV (Recreational Vehicle)，在美國每一年約有35萬台的銷售量 幾乎每一家庭都有一台(都市的家庭除外)，基本配備就是床 浴廁 廚房 它可是一般驕車駕照就可以行駛二等級RV 不過多半是退休的老年人或家庭長途出遊使用居多 你會常看到這些車輛的後面通常還會拖著一台驕車或Truck 因為通常到了固定的營地(可以接水，電，馬桶排水管，廢水管) 就會開著小車去玩了喔

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