Alone is not that lonely if you'll know

突然，有时候，在某个时间里，某个发呆的时候，某个动作的时候 我会有突如其来的post ideas 然后在心里想想，我今晚就要post这个 可是，常常就把这件事给溜过去了 My blog一直是我发泄情绪的地方 因此，大多数的文章都偏向negative 这不是因为我要让自己的狼狈表现出来再奢求别人的可怜 一个很简单的理由，因为‘它’是我的听众 唯一最忠实的听众 Instead of人类，它不曾从我身边离开过 只要我发现自己的内心已满溢了，就能随时和‘它’说说话话 因为它永远都在那个地方等着我的诉苦 这个月，现在，是考试的期间 我只希望，自己能happy go lucky得把它过完 压力？我比任何人还要压力 痛苦？我比任何人还要痛苦 可是哪有怎样，这样只会让别人看见自己的缺点 倒不如，嘻嘻哈哈得面对考试 我曾试着，努力得把考试当作没一回事 就像有些人能在考试前不做任何的准备然后郎朗当当得走进考场 拿到卷纸的时候，不过成就多么得烂也若无其事的樣子 我可以嗎？我能成功嗎？我行嗎？ 答案是，我不行。 只要我一閉上眼睛，未來的自己就已提醒了現在的自己 如要成功，就必須付出 如再不振作，只會有更多人追上自己 金牛座的自尊不是簡簡單單得隨便說說的 現在的我，頭腦很空 算了～...

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October = Time flies

Can you believe it's October now? PMR is ongoing, good luck to all the candidates anyway. Time flies extremely fast.  Well, thanks to PMR that we can have a week of holidays for free. Not a happy holidays anyway. As the iPhone rumors, the 'real' iPhone has been released 2days ago. Most of the people was expecting it's iPhone 5 but sadly I-4S has brought them huge disappointment and this bunch of people starting to complaints. Thus,...

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Who am I?

DO YOU EVER ASK YOURSELF, WHO ARE YOU? It's 7:14a.m now and i'm still awake. I decided to blog as it has been a month I do not update. I sleep less these days. Very late, usually early in the morning and wake up just at noon. Oops, it's not because of I am busy, it's just when I close my eyes, images of memories appear. Myself cannot control the falling of tears even though I try hard to be tough. I often ask myself, Paula Ho, who...

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My next plan

I <3 this pic more than i can say. Well, it's 12:08a.m now and imma still awake. This is my daily's routine, have used to that. Sometimes, I have to stay to 2am too. I seriously don't know what am I doing till stay up to as late as this.  My mind is seriously going to BOOOOMM! Lotss of thing haven't be done yet. My web shop has to be postponed and postponed. I just too toooo lazy to decide which design I want. I've searched bunches of...

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Forgive is obligated to build a friendship

I am the way to hell recently. My mind is storing too much things. I have stucked with my way. It's been hurt-s. Well, move on and stand steadily are the only solution. Do you know why I always disbelieve on things?  Do you know how hurt it is when someone lies even only a simple matter? Do you know words sometime make people feelings? I am in pain, I am in tears, I am struggling, I am suffering '' Believe, Trust '' simple word can never...

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Happy Father's Day

Happy Father's Day!! Thanks grandpa for everything. Thanks for being my father. Thanks for giving me anything i want.  You're really a great grandpa and dad. I am so lucky that i own a grandpa like you. God really treats me well. Thanks for watching my performance yesterday. I know, you've waited for my turn for dont know how many hours sitting alone there. Sorry. I'm really really grateful....

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Last Minute Trip

Imma currently is not in Dubai, yet KK. LOL~  A very last last minute trip. As i have no mood to stay at home so do i decided to have a last minute trip to KK. Well, my grandpa accompanied me all the way. Thanks ya! I'm glad if you just leave me alone. LOL. So that i can go anywhere, shop anywhere by myself. Well, my grandpa went to Damai Specialist for his medicial check up yesterday. He asked me to check for my gastro--- as well. I dont...

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Spend days like useless

  It's quite a boring holidays, staying at home, doing useless thing. Well, if it's a free mind holidays, it might be enjoy, but obviously it's not. I didnt go for my tuition classes for this whole week, why? Because i have no mood to get up from bed as well as study. It feels so hard for me to get up from bed. I spent a day useless-ly. Woke up on 11/12, watch movie for awhile, had my lunch a.k.a breakfast, napping, watch movie, sleep. Thats...

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Chinese Today

最近你過得好嗎？真的好？幸福不？ 這一直是我的疑問，沒人能回答的問題是什麼問題呢？ 我很猶豫，真的很猶豫～ 最近的生活亂了，真的亂了。 好想自己解決，把難題解掉，就像數學題目一樣 。雖然知道最後是有答案，可是卻不想知道答案，方佛像在逃避些什麼。 我，最近， 只是想要單純，不同，簡單的開心。 因為這樣我才能忘記這道數學題目，忘記沒這個的存在，明白嗎？我現在需要的是時間，寧靜，暫離，空間。 一些些就好，不久後，當我真的以為自己忘記數學題目的存在就會恢復成像以前的那個樣子了。   有時候，會很喜歡自己很忙，因為人家常說，忙會給人帶來遺忘～ 好比說暫時的失憶。 或許有些人會覺得我很‘怪藍’， 就那幾樣事情，就列為自己很忙，就像認為自己很厲害。 我想說，對～ 雖然事情看起來很簡單，可是絕不是想像中的容易解決。 尋找最好的，最實惠的，最perfect的，才是我要的。昨天，有位顧客打給我，聊了滿久，都是生意的事情當然也有聊另外的。聊天的過程我都是笑著回答，覺得自己好像從stranger那邊得到了一些快樂，...

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It's all about TIRED

Exam is still around. 2 more days to go. Should be fast? Well, i really need HOLIDAYS now. A free mind days. I've been so stressful for my exams and also my business. Too much too think & solve. I was talking to go for a rush Taiwan trip next week, well, i think i can't make it at the moment. First, my mum definitely will not let me travel abroad alone, only exception for Aus. And the airfare is quite expensive. I have too pay too much for all...

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Happy Mothers Day

Today is your day,PAULINE NG! There are a lot of words i have to tell you. A lot a lot. You make my life interesting. You make my life colourful. You make my life awesome. You make my life full of energy. You make my life delightful. My life is full of story. It's because of you, you write stories in my life, since the day i was born. Sometimes, i may think that, how lucky am i. Own a life, own an interesting story. Some people may cant have...

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May, sweet 16th

MAY actually belongs to my sweet 16th. Unfortunately, it is also a stress month for me. First semester exam is just around the corner. I have a lot to study, guess what, i even havent start any of them yet. Well, it's not because of laziness. It just i have limited time to get all the things done as well as sleep. I'm ready going to get half a dozen of FAILSSSS for the semester exam. I hate FAIL, but what to do. Went for a dinner reunion few...

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Life still has to go on no matter what

Life still has to go on no matter what happen. Do you think suicide does help? Maybe~ It's our belove sister, Lykai's birthday celebration last night. We had a lot of fun these days. From taking bus, baking cake, giving surprise.... Fortunately, the cake has been done PERFECTLY by ladies. It's like damn god hell happy. We did MANGO YOGURT CHEESE CAKE. I'm wondering am i suppose to use the 'bake' word as well, but we didnt have any baking process....

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Dayang's farewell

Went to Dayang's farewell party last week. Erm, nothing special on that day except the fact she's going. All the best anyway. I thought a lot these few days. Really a lot. I decided to change my future plan. It's useless to waiting for something hopeless. It like wasting my time, wasting all the self-energy for waiting. I wait too much thing to come towards me. Too much~ At the end, i still have to let them go. It's fact. I know god treats me well,...

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It's pain!

LOL~ there was something on my mouth. Who cares. Haha. I feel different when i put on this kind of make-up. A different life which i dont know how it goes. It seems like everyone almost has the same characteristic, but however there are a lot difference. The easiet way to describe is major and minor. We group character as two groups which are the major and minor a.k.a calefei. Obviously, the one who has the prettiest face no matter does he/she...

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CNY + ing

新年快樂！恭喜發財！金玉滿堂！ Wuuu~ it's chinese new year! Angpau is the most attraction during CNY. LOL~ money always is my favourite. Nope, should be forever!  My mum said, CNY should be happy and enjoyful, but the new generation kind like not take it serious. I mean like dont have the feel. YEAH~ CNY should be happy because we only celebrate it once a year, but my CNY days always S-U-C-K-S which make me cant really really enjoy.  It's happier...

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Sometimes i might be crazy

Obviously i do not have any nicer pic recently. Skin bad, over-blacked hair, fat looking, black circle ~ It's new year eve! we're going to February and CHINESE NEW YEAR. Seriously i feel whatever even there's CNY. I can't enjoy the happiness of chinese new year as chinese should do. It makes me feel like '' SO WHAT? It still a day that we have to pass '' The new generation's thinking may be ? Guess what, i havent finish my berbukit-bukit homeworks...

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Always be upset?

Well, i know my post title kinda funny, but it's true. Because of money~ yeah! because of money. I dont know what's my next plan after this. I kind of thinking im choosing the wrong way. A very wrong way, i lost my plan. I dont know which way should i go for. Money also one of the problem. I know my family can afford for the fees, but i dont want they spend this huge amount because of me. It's a very huge number.  I spoke this to my mum...

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其實家人很愛我的

HAHA! I have posted always every posts about the same topics. Well, here i go : Yesterday was Amanda's day, so how's the surprise? LOL~ Had her bithrday celebration in a very special place. Hope you enjoy that. Arg~ i love the cake! The ice-cream yam cake~ It tastes not that nice, but i have not eat ice-cream cake for a long time.  When time turn into 11++, we got out from the place and it's time for the birthday girl to go back. Time is money!...

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Time to diet!

wuu~ it's time to be with 2011. A very nice number. To those who his/her birthday is on NOV 20TH, congraz, you are so lucky.  2010 has passed~! Myself cant really believe now im in 2011, im 16 this year!! 4 more years im going to 20!! My dream is coming nearer and nearer, in no longer. It's also mean i have to spent more time with my friends, build up every single memory together, no tears for this year only happiness we can have. Well, we...

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