Who am I?

DO YOU EVER ASK YOURSELF, WHO ARE YOU?

It's 7:14a.m now and i'm still awake. I decided to blog as it has been a month I do not update. I sleep less these days. Very late, usually early in the morning and wake up just at noon. Oops, it's not because of I am busy, it's just when I close my eyes, images of memories appear. Myself cannot control the falling of tears even though I try hard to be tough.

I often ask myself, Paula Ho, who are you actually? What are you seeking for since the first day you're born? Is this what are you suppose to do? Why every time you need to work harder than everyone? Do remember every steps you move, they're your future.

Google's source, who am I > '' People who ask this sort of question are typically struggling with their identity and are searching for a core sense of themselves. The irony is that the more you seek to identify who you are, the more fragile you are likely to feel about yourself.''

Fragile? How can a human be proved he or she is fragile? 

When we're out of control, we usually don't know who ourselves are. Are we lost? Where have we been?

Even though I've taken lot of medicine, but my headache doesn't seem like going better. The moment, every negative thoughts just go into my mind. My mum always asks me to be relaxed. Just like yesterday, I was forced to have breakfast with her while I only took 2hours of sleep. I'm starting to become stressful for some matters. She said, ' Girl, try to be relaxed. See, we're having dim sum in such a nice place, you should just sit and enjoy your food. '' 

LoL~ I replied, ' That's impossible mum. If only i'm relax, most of the customers will call and call and eventually burnt my phone to ask where is their stocks. '' How do you want me to be relaxed? Once I fall a little, everything that I had worked hard will just gone without telling you when it is. You get to feel there's just a big bomm in front of you. I know, maybe, just maybe some people can't understand how exactly my feeling is. Doesn't matter~ 

Well, my headache is disturbing my mind now. Ps./ I can't really process well now, Sorry if there are grammar mistakes. 

GOODNIGHT