changing

Im trying harder and harder to change myself to become better and better in the future. I know, beauty is not all. But anyway, beauty is also a part that is important in life. People look you down when u are ugly or cant even find a good guy. Many many more..

The top picture is kinda ugly.. please ignore about it. Actually, i have nothing to write today. Just write about my first day diet.

I only can have fruits and wholemeal bread as my meals. How pity am i~ Well, it only has to work for 5days, it's pretty better anyway. But because of body, it's worth. The pill doesnt taste nice, it more tastes like herba. It's disgusting~

Had video call with my mum a moment ago. I talked about money with my mum suddenly. I just realise that how heavy my mum's pressure is. No one can understands it. A woman whom only own a small grocery shop has to pay for all the expenses. Im sad for that, and sometimes bothersome for the question.

My mum really know me very much. She packed my luggage before i departed. She know what thing i need and those cosmetics. She even prepared a small size bottle lotion for me just in case of i want to use it. Well i didnt use lotion. She packed my make-up remover , toner, hairband, foundation and many more. And because of this, she bought me a new luggage bag, watch, few of clothes,shoes and bags. We seldom waste money of these things. And it just only because of im going to work. Even sometimes i shouted at her when i lazy to talk with her, she doesnt cares about it. She even tries to make joke in front of me to let me happier. When i said 'oh no~im fat', my mum always say u not and give me some comfort. I got a bad result this year and my ranking is worse than last year. My mum really cares about my ranking in the final examination, but this year she doenst say anything and just comfort me with try harder next year. I know she doesnt say anything because of she know my mood havent change better yet. And just comfort me more and more.


By the way,next year will be my PMR examination. It's suck, no freedom for me.

I LOVE YOU MUM

i love you more than you love me~LOL