Paula Ho

0602012

2012-02-06T07:25:00.001-08:00

It's the last day of 2012 CNY. Un-usally, this is my first time staying at home and doing nothing. Form 5 life isn't a joke. Everything talks about pressure and stress. The worst is i haven't start some of my tuition yet. It's just the cause of laziness. Sometimes, you just wanna stay on the bed even you're not sleepy.

As I've leave my blog for more than 3months, my writing skills is also running down hill. Everything in life now is just going as it should be. Nothing special at all.

2011 Was Over

2012-02-06T06:59:00.000-08:00

So, finally 2011 was over and now all of us are heading to 2020. Time flies very fast as I just realized I hadn't write my blog for 2months. These 2months in 2011 were boring enough. Apart from the KL & KK trips with buddies, the rest of the days were like hell. I couldn't feel what's meaningful of life is.

Well, let's conclude how's my 2011 went over :

1. My first holidays trip with buddies to Genting and KL.

2. Got to celebrate mum's birthday in amazing Italian restaurant which has the super duber expensive bill @ KL.

3. Had a very ''syok'' shopping session with buddies @ KL.

4. Got to buy mum an expensive dress from ZARA which she thinks it looks ugly.

4. My first experience of participated in drama competition and got a very special award.

5. Have joined SGM dancers for performance @ KK

6. Finally I have my own webshop. Feel free to visit www.hohoegg.com.

7. My first visit to SMC for headache check and all the scanning parts experience.

8. My wonderful Bangkok trip was forced to cancel due to some reasons.

9. Achieve my 17's target earlier. Feel great about it.

Well, there's a lot more. I'm just too lazy update all of them. Laziness kills my blog.

Bye!

Alone is not that lonely if you'll know

2011-10-14T10:00:00.000-07:00

突然，有时候，在某个时间里，某个发呆的时候，某个动作的时候

我会有突如其来的post ideas

然后在心里想想，我今晚就要post这个

可是，常常就把这件事给溜过去了

My blog一直是我发泄情绪的地方

因此，大多数的文章都偏向negative

这不是因为我要让自己的狼狈表现出来再奢求别人的可怜

一个很简单的理由，因为‘它’是我的听众

唯一最忠实的听众

Instead of人类，它不曾从我身边离开过

只要我发现自己的内心已满溢了，就能随时和‘它’说说话话

因为它永远都在那个地方等着我的诉苦

这个月，现在，是考试的期间

我只希望，自己能happy go lucky得把它过完

压力？我比任何人还要压力

痛苦？我比任何人还要痛苦

可是哪有怎样，这样只会让别人看见自己的缺点

倒不如，嘻嘻哈哈得面对考试

我曾试着，努力得把考试当作没一回事

就像有些人能在考试前不做任何的准备然后郎朗当当得走进考场

拿到卷纸的时候，不过成就多么得烂也若无其事的樣子

我可以嗎？我能成功嗎？我行嗎？

答案是，我不行。

只要我一閉上眼睛，未來的自己就已提醒了現在的自己

如要成功，就必須付出

如再不振作，只會有更多人追上自己

金牛座的自尊不是簡簡單單得隨便說說的

現在的我，頭腦很空

算了～ Goodnight!

October = Time flies

2011-10-05T19:15:00.000-07:00

Can you believe it's October now? PMR is ongoing, good luck to all the candidates anyway. Time flies extremely fast.

Well, thanks to PMR that we can have a week of holidays for free. Not a happy holidays anyway. As the iPhone rumors, the 'real' iPhone has been released 2days ago. Most of the people was expecting it's iPhone 5 but sadly I-4S has brought them huge disappointment and this bunch of people starting to complaints. Thus, Apple's share has fell sharply when the 1-4S releasing as a result cause of Steve Jobs's death this morning.

I cried when I read the news. Well, not dramatic-ly just a few tears. It's really sad to hear this news. My best man was passed away! Yeah, my best man. Rest in peace.

Exam is coming soon and I don't know what should I do. Ever since I came back after my medical check up, my mum has stopped all my tuition classes so that I can have more relaxing time and stress-reduced. It sounds awesome but.. I didn't revise any book at home as well as at school. It's just too lazy to read and bother about the locked questions. Hopefully I can do a little well in this coming examination. It's fine if there is ''some'' failss.

By the way, my web shop is going to ''open'' soon! Erm, maybe after the examination. LOL.

Ps:/ I feel weird of this kind of life.

Byebye

Who am I?

2011-09-03T16:48:00.000-07:00

DO YOU EVER ASK YOURSELF, WHO ARE YOU?

It's 7:14a.m now and i'm still awake. I decided to blog as it has been a month I do not update. I sleep less these days. Very late, usually early in the morning and wake up just at noon. Oops, it's not because of I am busy, it's just when I close my eyes, images of memories appear. Myself cannot control the falling of tears even though I try hard to be tough.

I often ask myself, Paula Ho, who are you actually? What are you seeking for since the first day you're born? Is this what are you suppose to do? Why every time you need to work harder than everyone? Do remember every steps you move, they're your future.

Google's source, who am I > '' People who ask this sort of question are typically struggling with their identity and are searching for a core sense of themselves. The irony is that the more you seek to identify who you are, the more fragile you are likely to feel about yourself.''

Fragile? How can a human be proved he or she is fragile?

When we're out of control, we usually don't know who ourselves are. Are we lost? Where have we been?

Even though I've taken lot of medicine, but my headache doesn't seem like going better. The moment, every negative thoughts just go into my mind. My mum always asks me to be relaxed. Just like yesterday, I was forced to have breakfast with her while I only took 2hours of sleep. I'm starting to become stressful for some matters. She said, ' Girl, try to be relaxed. See, we're having dim sum in such a nice place, you should just sit and enjoy your food. ''

LoL~ I replied, ' That's impossible mum. If only i'm relax, most of the customers will call and call and eventually burnt my phone to ask where is their stocks. '' How do you want me to be relaxed? Once I fall a little, everything that I had worked hard will just gone without telling you when it is. You get to feel there's just a big bomm in front of you. I know, maybe, just maybe some people can't understand how exactly my feeling is. Doesn't matter~

Well, my headache is disturbing my mind now. Ps./ I can't really process well now, Sorry if there are grammar mistakes.

GOODNIGHT

My next plan

2011-07-31T09:26:00.000-07:00

I <3 this pic more than i can say.

Well, it's 12:08a.m now and imma still awake. This is my daily's routine, have used to that. Sometimes, I have to stay to 2am too. I seriously don't know what am I doing till stay up to as late as this.

My mind is seriously going to BOOOOMM! Lotss of thing haven't be done yet. My web shop has to be postponed and postponed. I just too toooo lazy to decide which design I want. I've searched bunches of designs and downloaded as well, my next job is just combine all of them to a simple design and send it to the web-designer. You know, I want everything to be done in PERFECT, but things always end up with bullshits just because of my simply laziness.

I suppose I might just focus on my web shop and study once all the things that suppose to be done have done. There is more and more people doing online business recently. I have sick of that and I think it's time for me to retire. I often looking on freshness, once lotss of people do the same thing as I, I'm starting to change my direction.

I'm looking forward on Forex trading. I'm sure I have millions to learn about that. Good luck to me. Money money, please come back to mama. I need you!

Ooops, i just realize my English level is regressing. Gosh~~~~

Forgive is obligated to build a friendship

2011-07-24T09:28:00.000-07:00

I am the way to hell recently. My mind is storing too much things. I have stucked with my way. It's been hurt-s. Well, move on and stand steadily are the only solution.

Do you know why I always disbelieve on things?

Do you know how hurt it is when someone lies even only a simple matter?

Do you know words sometime make people feelings?

I am in pain, I am in tears, I am struggling, I am suffering

'' Believe, Trust '' simple word can never be found in my dictionary since the year

When I started to get back into these words, I just realized i shouldn't

It really hurts a lot when someone you trust enough lies, you know the truth, but still you have to pretend as nothing and let the acting running

Because, forgiveness should be your side every moment

I read a book, not sure is that a book, should be.

It told me :

We do not have the right to judge people as we're ain't good enough. Leave it with God.

etc~~~~

Be good to people, because you'll need them someday.

Happy Father's Day

2011-06-19T02:24:00.000-07:00

Happy Father's Day!!

Thanks grandpa for everything. Thanks for being my father. Thanks for giving me anything i want.

You're really a great grandpa and dad. I am so lucky that i own a grandpa like you. God really treats me well.

Thanks for watching my performance yesterday. I know, you've waited for my turn for dont know how many hours sitting alone there. Sorry. I'm really really grateful.

Last Minute Trip

2011-06-10T08:10:00.000-07:00

Imma currently is not in Dubai, yet KK. LOL~ A very last last minute trip. As i have no mood to stay at home so do i decided to have a last minute trip to KK. Well, my grandpa accompanied me all the way. Thanks ya! I'm glad if you just leave me alone. LOL. So that i can go anywhere, shop anywhere by myself.

Well, my grandpa went to Damai Specialist for his medicial check up yesterday. He asked me to check for my gastro--- as well. I dont know what's the exact name, it's a scientific name. Whatever. Initially, i said NO, as for me, it kinds like wasting hundreds of money on this i-think-it's-ok stuff. I can buy lot of clothes with that money, but after that think of rather than doing nothing at there, so i decided have a check then. My grandpa pays that so i dont need to worry about anything.

The doctor who my grandpa wanted me to see was not available at the time but it's ok when he directed went to see the doctor. He said yes. WTH~ He asked me for a X-RAY, the nurse brought me to the room and left me with others nurses as well. It's my turn no longer. The x-ray in charge gave me kind of a blouse and asked me to wear on it without anything except panty. I was shocked and i asked him how about BRA shyly. He said yes as it's iron. Well, alright then. I was imagined if my panty is iron too, what will happen.

I changed in a small yet clean changing room. I went to the x-ray room after i was done. To be honest, i was really shy at the moment. Who cares. I was wondering how the facility works. It's quite amazing. The x-ray in charge was quite busy-body, 38~ He kept talked and talked non-stoply. Anyway, he gave me a new knowledge which is we cant be stress, as we strees, food cant be digested well thus causes gastric. Food which is supposed to be digested completely after 4 hours but because of stress, it can be stucked. Wow, i just knew that. I thought it's only when we eat too much or do not eat anything are only the factors.

I went into the doctor's room again once i was done. And again, i gained new knowledge. When our faeces are too stiff, it cant pass smoothly in our intestine. Thus, it will just stuck in the middle. When the other faeces want to pass through, they will push the faeces which are located in front of them. The force of pushing causes our intestine to be pained. And so, i thought i have gastric everytime but it's actually not. It's my faeces a.k.a shit problem. Thanks doctor for the new knowledge.

I regret i didnt ask him much. I should ask why the faeces are stiff instead of soft etc. Well, thanks anyway for that.

Spend days like useless

2011-06-04T09:06:00.000-07:00

It's quite a boring holidays, staying at home, doing useless thing. Well, if it's a free mind holidays, it might be enjoy, but obviously it's not. I didnt go for my tuition classes for this whole week, why? Because i have no mood to get up from bed as well as study. It feels so hard for me to get up from bed. I spent a day useless-ly. Woke up on 11/12, watch movie for awhile, had my lunch a.k.a breakfast, napping, watch movie, sleep. Thats all for a day.

I hope this will not happen in my future. I do not like this kind of life, i rather to be busy or tired instead of useless, boring life.

Few months later, it will be a new year, 2012. It should be a meaningful year for me. It should be my new life, but something just ruined it, ruined one of my dream. Nevermind. Life still has to go on no matter what.

To become a CEO, there are a lot of ways. Difference is just how you become a CEO. I've planned for my future, it sounds ridiculous, but i just want to work hard for that. I've no time to play around, there are people waiting for in the future. My mum, my grandpa, my grandma..

Chinese Today

2011-05-30T08:15:00.000-07:00

最近你過得好嗎？真的好？幸福不？這一直是我的疑問，沒人能回答的問題是什麼問題呢？
我很猶豫，真的很猶豫～最近的生活亂了，真的亂了。好想自己解決，把難題解掉，就像數學題目一樣。雖然知道最後是有答案，可是卻不想知道答案，方佛像在逃避些什麼。

我，最近，只是想要單純，不同，簡單的開心。因為這樣我才能忘記這道數學題目，忘記沒這個的存在，明白嗎？我現在需要的是時間，寧靜，暫離，空間。一些些就好，不久後，當我真的以為自己忘記數學題目的存在就會恢復成像以前的那個樣子了。

有時候，會很喜歡自己很忙，因為人家常說，忙會給人帶來遺忘～好比說暫時的失憶。或許有些人會覺得我很‘怪藍’，就那幾樣事情，就列為自己很忙，就像認為自己很厲害。我想說，對～雖然事情看起來很簡單，可是絕不是想像中的容易解決。尋找最好的，最實惠的，最perfect的，才是我要的。

昨天，有位顧客打給我，聊了滿久，都是生意的事情當然也有聊另外的。聊天的過程我都是笑著回答，覺得自己好像從stranger那邊得到了一些快樂，就那種很單純的快樂。另外，也有點感覺幸福，當她知道我真真的年齡後（我曾經騙過她我20+歲），她居然擔心得問我‘那，那些顧客不會欺負我嗎？’ 我stunned了一下～就很難形容那樣的感覺。

我一路來都不會和顧客透露我真實的年齡，偶爾他們問了我也會說謊，因為這樣我才能讓別人相信我。或許有些人會認為，年紀小不懂事如何做生意，就這樣他們會選擇年紀比較成熟的賣家。這就是現實，偶爾在電視劇裡也能看到這樣的情況。

It's all about TIRED

2011-05-20T11:23:00.000-07:00

Exam is still around. 2 more days to go. Should be fast? Well, i really need HOLIDAYS now. A free mind days. I've been so stressful for my exams and also my business. Too much too think & solve. I was talking to go for a rush Taiwan trip next week, well, i think i can't make it at the moment. First, my mum definitely will not let me travel abroad alone, only exception for Aus. And the airfare is quite expensive. I have too pay too much for all of that. somemore the wage that i need to pay for the local. Too much to cover. But, it's also the cheapest wayi found. I keep calculate all the charges this few days. Convert between 2 currencies, it's so tired. Just to find out which solution might be the best. Guess what, i'm still on the process. Still havent done calculating yet.

Not only that, i have to check with the bank for the latest currencies. Phone call never stop. Well, i think i sound little exaggerate but it's quite that situation. Aikz.. my mind is just too tight for this month. The exam is killing me, especially the Physic and + Math.

Honestly, i used to be good in Math. Seriously. When there is Math test, the night before it is the most relax night. And still i can do quite good in Math test. However, this situation do not happen this year. For now, i used to be scare math, especially + Math. I dont know what's the reason. But, it just happen. Even Mr. Fabian realise it too. I'm so sad for that. I'm trying to fix it back, but... aikz~ hopefully it can be fixed.

GOODNIGHT

Happy Mothers Day

2011-05-08T07:32:00.000-07:00

Today is your day,PAULINE NG!

There are a lot of words i have to tell you. A lot a lot. You make my life interesting. You make my life colourful. You make my life awesome. You make my life full of energy. You make my life delightful.

My life is full of story. It's because of you, you write stories in my life, since the day i was born. Sometimes, i may think that, how lucky am i. Own a life, own an interesting story. Some people may cant have that, i'm just too lucky.

I know i am not a good daughter, always kind like shouting at you. But, your love never decreases, you never mad at me doing that at you. I'm really sorry, Mum. Thank you for your tolerance.

Having you as my mum is the most wonderful gift from god. Maybe you could have losted someone you love, nevermind, it's alright, dont be sad. You get someone who love you more. No pain no gain, isn't. You gain someone who always be with you, always be at your side, always love you more, and that's me!

Mum, once again, thank you for your support all the way throughout my life. I still remember the year, the worst year. The world was seemed black to me, very black. But, you lighted it. Indeed, a very bright light. I eventually walked out and faced the world again. No matter how alone am i. From the day untilr i went overseas, your support is my energy to smile & laugh.

I know, you had passed something even worser than that. Honestly, i can't understand how sad was is, but i will bring as much happiness as you need. Always remember do not look back, because there's someone standing in front of you.

THANK YOU FOR ALL THE THINGS. THANK YOU FOR 16 YEARS CARES! THANK YOU!

PS:// Sorry that your mother's day present has to be postponed. Recently, large amount of money was going out. Will buy you the present once the money comes back to mama.

May, sweet 16th

2011-05-02T09:14:00.000-07:00

MAY actually belongs to my sweet 16th. Unfortunately, it is also a stress month for me. First semester exam is just around the corner. I have a lot to study, guess what, i even havent start any of them yet. Well, it's not because of laziness. It just i have limited time to get all the things done as well as sleep.

I'm ready going to get half a dozen of FAILSSSS for the semester exam. I hate FAIL, but what to do. Went for a dinner reunion few fays ago. Ooops~ some idea-ss suddenly poppped out from my mind, it's actually i had told that to my grandpa since i went back from AUS. I think it's a great idea as well as investment. If im not mistaken, they only have a branch in Malaysia @ Pavillion and the business doing really good! And now, according to my cousin, there is 6 new branches now in KL.

I want to do that sosososo badly. Unfortuantely, financial backup is the most major point. Somemore, i should concentrate in study first before head to those none-of-my-business matter. Perhaps i can wash my grandpa's brain and let him invest that. Money 100% guarantee back ok. Well, anyone who is interested in this, can contact me. LOL~ im serious.

SLEEP TIME!

Life still has to go on no matter what

2011-04-16T09:21:00.000-07:00

Life still has to go on no matter what happen. Do you think suicide does help? Maybe~ It's our belove sister, Lykai's birthday celebration last night. We had a lot of fun these days. From taking bus, baking cake, giving surprise....

Fortunately, the cake has been done PERFECTLY by ladies. It's like damn god hell happy. We did MANGO YOGURT CHEESE CAKE. I'm wondering am i suppose to use the 'bake' word as well, but we didnt have any baking process. Whatever~ my english not that good too.

Above should post earlier, but due to my laziness.....

Sometimes it's too good to be true, but it's also too good to face the truth. Nothing that can be escaped. You dont know what is happening at the moment, you hope, at least someone can help, at least someone can tell you what it is, at least someone can perish the fire which is burning in your mind. Unfortunately, the 'someone' is not a fact, indeed you're alone. Obviously and obviously.

A simply award is not a joke, tears with story prove that all. It can be not, but it also can be yes. No doubt. Everyone cares about their images, except no one. It's true, dont you realise it. Mouth is un-controllable ''organ'', as well as tongue. Tastes you test must be detected by every sense which is given. Self role, self responbility, self work...

GOODNIGHT

Dayang's farewell

2011-03-18T11:20:00.000-07:00

Went to Dayang's farewell party last week. Erm, nothing special on that day except the fact she's going. All the best anyway.

I thought a lot these few days. Really a lot. I decided to change my future plan. It's useless to waiting for something hopeless. It like wasting my time, wasting all the self-energy for waiting. I wait too much thing to come towards me. Too much~ At the end, i still have to let them go. It's fact. I know god treats me well, he's telling me something there is better waiting for me. I know, i know it for true.

I spent nothing useful these days. Watch drama, searching < all the stuffs that made my days. I'm not really satisfy with such life. It makes me look like useless! It makes me look like i have no dream!

I know my look kind like look VERY different than usual. You know, the power of cosmestics and contact lens. No doubt. What you watching is a meat-ly girl in your PC. I'm not trying to make you guys disgussting but trying to say something.

Every girls want to have a few different characters in their life. Same as me, me too! I hope i can change my characters days by days. What people looking at me is, they dont know who am i will going to be. Looking at the same character, it means that you only have a characteristics. When you're going to change to another character, you will feel that what you have passed has gone for the moment. Everything around changes although it's not fact. You keep yourself but you do not keep your look.

It's pain!

2011-02-24T07:21:00.000-08:00

LOL~ there was something on my mouth. Who cares. Haha. I feel different when i put on this kind of make-up. A different life which i dont know how it goes. It seems like everyone almost has the same characteristic, but however there are a lot difference.

The easiet way to describe is major and minor. We group character as two groups which are the major and minor a.k.a calefei. Obviously, the one who has the prettiest face no matter does he/she has any ability, they always always will be the main. In fact, it shows we judge people by the first sight of their face. This is what human being.

Took that with Mama. I'm so glad that they came for me. I'm really really glad that eventually i got the chance to show them my effort. I'm not really really a good dancer or born to be, but at least i try harder than anyone to perform the best as i can. I join dance not for interest or fun, but because of money. It sounds 'cheap', but who cares. You might feel cheap, but do you feel good when you have no money?

Dont spend much when you're not earning your own money. Please always remember it's not easy to earn money. You can buy whatever you want without thinking whose money is that, im sure your next generation will be the same as you. Definitely, i do not mean that you cant buy something expensive like branded. But, it's alright if once in a blue moon. Eventhough branded things are always expensive, but they can stay longer than those cheaper things. < only some

CNY + ing

2011-02-11T05:45:00.000-08:00

新年快樂！恭喜發財！金玉滿堂！

Wuuu~ it's chinese new year! Angpau is the most attraction during CNY. LOL~ money always is my favourite. Nope, should be forever!

My mum said, CNY should be happy and enjoyful, but the new generation kind like not take it serious. I mean like dont have the feel. YEAH~ CNY should be happy because we only celebrate it once a year, but my CNY days always S-U-C-K-S which make me cant really really enjoy.

It's happier when celebrate CNY in Kuching > the angpau-s are A LOT bigger. However, i have to celebrate my cny in KK this year which i hate the most. Apparently, the angpau-s are A LOT SMALLER. I have to stay with my uncle's wife which i HATE the most in a house. I have to get up earlier everyday due to my lovely mum wants to. I have to spend money > S-H-O-P-P-I-N-G. Every single thing.

我累了，為了自己的夢想而努力爭取

我累了，為了自己的夢想而傷心

我累了，為了自己的選擇而心痛

我討厭，不曾努力爭取/生活的人有免費的午餐吃

而努力的人卻掉了無數次的眼淚還是的不到想要的

最傷心的是，抱著滿懷的希望得到認證了，雖然只差一步可是還是不知道前方會是怎樣的結果

Sometimes i might be crazy

2011-02-02T07:47:00.000-08:00

Obviously i do not have any nicer pic recently. Skin bad, over-blacked hair, fat looking, black circle ~ It's new year eve! we're going to February and CHINESE NEW YEAR. Seriously i feel whatever even there's CNY. I can't enjoy the happiness of chinese new year as chinese should do. It makes me feel like '' SO WHAT? It still a day that we have to pass '' The new generation's thinking may be ?

Guess what, i havent finish my berbukit-bukit homeworks yet. I hate the feeling which kind like make me cant really enjoy the wonderful holidays. Somemore, there were something terrible happened these few days. Upset upset upset!! Tears tears tears!!

To my dearest friends >　Sometimes i might be very very crazy which very very annoying, dont say no, even myself feel that way too. Forgive me and just let me do it, because this is only the way and time i can have the happiness. Not trying to be emo but just trying to explain that im not acting to make fun for you guys.

Alright then, time to bath!

Gong Xi Fa Cai~!!

Always be upset?

2011-01-22T03:26:00.000-08:00

Well, i know my post title kinda funny, but it's true. Because of money~ yeah! because of money. I dont know what's my next plan after this. I kind of thinking im choosing the wrong way. A very wrong way, i lost my plan. I dont know which way should i go for. Money also one of the problem. I know my family can afford for the fees, but i dont want they spend this huge amount because of me. It's a very huge number.

I spoke this to my mum before this. I told her what's my mind thinking. She's just trying to convince that money it's not the main problem. I just cant stop thinking. * relax.

I dye my hair eventually~ i bought the Revlon- brown black and was expected the colour will be bit brown + black. Well, im wrong! It's too over black! I miss my Marsmallow colour.

Recently life? Study - Sleep - Online. That's all! Going to have an interesting year i think? Hopefully!

Being in a Science class, need a lot of preparation before you step in the class. Please make sure you have enough sleep! I find it's the most terrible thing when i have no enough sleep. Dont know how to describe.

Few days ago, accidentally told my mum about someone's relationship. My mum started to pibala-pibala-pibala non-stop-ly. I think she's looking bad on them. Hmm? At the same time, i also told my mum about mine. Haha~ yeah, about mine. She said it's fate that.. and asked me to be auto. WTH! Definitely i will not do that, dont ever expect!

Continue to be busy.

Bye!

其實家人很愛我的

2011-01-09T07:18:00.000-08:00

HAHA! I have posted always every posts about the same topics. Well, here i go :

Yesterday was Amanda's day, so how's the surprise? LOL~ Had her bithrday celebration in a very special place. Hope you enjoy that. Arg~ i love the cake! The ice-cream yam cake~ It tastes not that nice, but i have not eat ice-cream cake for a long time.

When time turn into 11++, we got out from the place and it's time for the birthday girl to go back. Time is money! LOL~ sorry, direct translate, broken english~ The left of us decided to go to have some chinese tea before going back. On the way, i received a call from my mum. I was thinking wasnt she was going to nag me because of i still havent get back as it's midnight that time. I answered the call and was expected the one which i was thinking. Apparently, i was wrong, i heard the care from my family. My mum said to me that grandpa was asking me to going back earlier and be careful when walking around. Yesh! I heard the love from them~ The true love!

The words melted my heart. That time was nearly midnight, as usual, grandpa must be on his soft bed and having his beauty sleep. I know he just woke up because of me. The first time in my 16years old life! I know it's a normal thingy, but for me it's not.

This time is talking about my grandpa not my mum. LOL~ change watak! My grandpa is a quite ''kiam siap'' guy. He always save and try to not spend too much. Well, he only does this on himself, but with us, he never be stingy. Erm, sometimes he does, but mostly he doesnt~ LOL. I asked him to buy a M.B.A for me as the present of my results and my laptop is going to be dead. I told him the price and also told him that i started falling in love with it when i first saw it in David John, QLD, AUS. I love that~ Without thinking too long, he said yes! yeah, he said yes! Definitely out of my surprise, i thought he would say dont waste that money, you already have a laptop. Arg, thanks god! However, he added '' but after he opened his new business '' at the end of his words. Alright, nevermind~ i can be patient of that, just a couple of months only.

I was thinking should i continue? But my mind tell me that, NO.

Alright then, GOODNIGHT~

Time to diet!

2011-01-01T22:40:00.000-08:00

wuu~ it's time to be with 2011. A very nice number. To those who his/her birthday is on NOV 20TH, congraz, you are so lucky.

2010 has passed~! Myself cant really believe now im in 2011, im 16 this year!! 4 more years im going to 20!! My dream is coming nearer and nearer, in no longer. It's also mean i have to spent more time with my friends, build up every single memory together, no tears for this year only happiness we can have. Well, we have done this for half a year in 2010, so i know we can do that greatly. Couple more years, the end of our relationship is there.

All of us are going to fly freedomly to the place where we should be. A very nice place and also a strange place. However, we cant run for that, hopefully our relationship still can be as close as now. I know, every single of us will have a very sucessful career in the future as what we try to imagine that day.Anyway, I really hope it will be true.

Think to the pass, i just realize that im not that regret because of the bad memories. They give me memories and also experiences which i need a day. I learn to stand while im fall. Thanks mum. You teach me how should i be strong. You always be there for me, whenever i cry, whenever i happy. I really really glad to have you as my mum, the biggest present in my life ever. You always be there to support me even though i'm wrong. I never fall entirely because you always hold me by side. I know you always proud of me because of my little suceed which i dont think it's big. I always complain but you always convince. THANKS MUM~

To be continued

2010-12-20T16:51:00.000-08:00

Time always flies away, without telling us when it goes,. Only a moment, here come December! Another few days more, here we go 2011. Is not a excitement for me though, I feel quite upset. Dont know why, actually i know but just do not feel like wanna say it here.

Walked to the city after finished watching The Social Network. It was quite fun walking alone with your own DSLR. It feels extraordinary, for me. I took every single things around me. It was super duber fun.

The view of Brisbane city. Actually, Brisbane lifestyle is quite same as KL's. The transportations are so convenience, the food are EXTREMELY expensive. Well, not as expensive as KL's. The huge difference is people here are so niceee, less malay and there are many Taiwanese here. LOL! It's not that hard to have an Asian friend.

I love this, but the only was spoiled is the angle. Not pro yet, maybe a few years later. Arg~! Mum, i want to change lens! I told my mum this when i bought my ECHO, she pretended like she's going to buy that for me. < H-O-P-E-F-U-L-L-Y! Oh yeah, actually i planned to buy nikon D5000, but the stupid staff said D500 is better because the MP is bigger and lighter. The prices are almost same anyway. Sorry Nikon, will support you when my children need it, maybe 15 years later?


My favourite outwear! We're celebrating our 1 year anniversary.

Accidentally took this picture.

An Indian man walked passed me and said something stupid. Something like Ohh, u're alone too. No one help to take pic. BLA~BLA~ but luckily he quite not bad, before he walked away, he asked me do you want me to help you take pic. Ermm~ i wanted to.. but... no thanks. I am so bad luck! If he is a very good looking taiwanese/korean/japanese guy, definitely i will say YES without thinking. Arg, my white prince where are you?!

Walked along the street, accidentally found there's Woolworth's. Wuuu~ time to be housewife. I searched and searched, have no idea what to buy, but my mind told me that you had a lot things to buy. I spent nearly an hour in it if im not mistaken. I found the cheaper and put back the one i took previously. I found the cheap one not that good and go and grab the one more expensive. WTH! Money and quality~

Ended up buying these things. Banana, eggs, milk, sausages and bread from BreadTop! The eggs i only used 3 or 4 of them only. I dont know why do i bought these stuffs. Anyway, Malaysia is so so so so OUTDATED! I checkout throught a self-checkout machine. It's so so so fun! It's a little machine, you scan the items that you have grabbed and put the money in a small box. Erm, i dont know how to describe the process. *paiseh

By the way, imma quite happy now! Eventually i got my IELST result. It's a huge huge surprise, THANKS GOD SO MUCH! Overall i got 6.5 band out of 9. Wow, immma was shocked when i saw that. Amazing! I took the Academic one which people take this to entry undergraduate or postgraduate level, normally they need 7 to enter uni. Wow! i'm quite proud of myself the moment i read the letter.

Ps:// I'm going back this midnight.. Bye Brisbane, Bye Jemma, Bye Annesu, Bye Joy & Isaac, Bye aunt & unc, Bye Summit, Bye Greg, Bye Eve, Bye Kong!

I believe, is not the right time.

2010-12-06T05:07:00.000-08:00

Today's weather is totally bad. However, thanks god for hearing my wish, there's a sunnyday when i went out. LOL, i was like thinking isn't he really heard what what i'm saying. Anyway, watched American's Next Top Model while having milk & ice-cream as breakfast this morning. I had promised myself that i HAVE to loose weight! So, i was doing some exercises while watching the American's Next Top Model. What's on my mind is, I keep thinking that i want to be like them, as that i got to went on to my exercises for nearly half an hour. Claps for me! Y-A-HH. Goona do that tomorrow again. Here i go for an hour~~ I wish i can make it to 2hours! Come on Paula! You can make it. < H-O-P-E-F-U-L-L-L-Y!

My black circle is so terrible. I dont know why it is, i sleep quite early every night and wake up quite late. I have enough sleep but black circle is still around me. Let me go pleassse~~ Let's go, on the way to the train station. Time to go to the Southbank.

Here we go. From house to the station take approximately 13minutes. Quite far~ but when you walk relaxly, you will feel that actually is not that far. After 10mins, reached southbank. I didnt take pic there because i was rushing for the movie. Reached there at 2:22pm and the movie started on 2:30pm. LOL, it took me 4-5mins to walk to the cinema.

To our lovely passenger, Paula Ho, your destination is over here. Reached there on time and rushed to the candy bar to buy some popcorn and coke. All of that costed me around 6.5$ + 5.6$ = 12.1$. Ooh yeaah, i was watching the Social Network. A story about the CEO of facebook, Mark Zulkerberg created Facebook. What an asshole nerd! Before, you were one of my idol as you are the youngest billionaire, but now, you are so shiit for me. By the way, there was an aged uncle sat beside me, he was kinda ridiculous. He was snoring when the movie just started and i was like W-T-H.

I feel an extraordinary feeling from these pictures. Don't know why. A very lonely but full of hapiness feel. Arg~ whatver. The rest imma goona post them another day. Oh yeah, almost forget about a thing. I havent done edit my dashboard yet, i have no time for that. Will edit the rest when i'm free!

GOONIGHT

Gold Coast Day

2010-12-05T06:28:00.000-08:00

Well, yesterday had a very nice day, the most ''interesting day'' in my life ever. 4th DECEMBER ! Yeap, my IELST test date. Candidate 003670 ready to fight! Here i come.. LOL

I finished my papers yesterday! Say yeah~ Y-E-A-H! I think it was a very good experience, as the test atmoshpere was super duber extraordinary. I can see that my future uni life will be as same as that. Ohh yeaahh, anyway, i think i am also the youngest among those test-takers. The reason i like the test is, you are sitting with different people who come from different countries and also everyone do not have an exact age. Some old people like my mum age do aslo take the test. So that's why i like it, erm, not really actually~

Woke up at 5:30am, took a bath, dress myself up and started the journey to Gold Coast in 6:30am. Reached there about 7:30am, walked to the test centre, what i saw was quite a bunch of INDIAN GUYS who spoke un-cle-leng-gay~ Went to registered, waited for an hour + 30 mins and the test started.

Here came the first > Listening Test. WHAT-THE-HELL. The speakers spoke so fast and they even spoke in British assent. I was like almost cant catch up, fortunately, thanks god, i got it but with *TEMBAK*. Whatever~ as long as i have done the paper, No blank! Second was the reading. Claps for me. I can did this with enough time. Usually i ran out of time when i did my practices, again thanks god for that! Next was the writing part. WTH, wrote two tasks with 150words and 250 words in an hour. OMG, i was like wrote whatever in my mind. Last was the speaking. H-e-l-l. The cue card's question was ''what equipments that i think it's useful at home ( no computer ). '' Beside of my laptop, i do not think there is any useful equipments in my house, but lastly i answered it with TV even though i think it's not really useful. Whatever, and ended the test with stupid questions. Fortunately, i met a very nice aussis man, otherwise i would die!

That's all. By the way, tomorrow imma going out. Goonna start my officially traveling tomorrow, Brisbane here i come with my ECHO 2 a.k.a Canon !

GOODNIGHT MUM!

Teehee!

2010-11-30T07:09:00.000-08:00

Goona write in chinese today. Miss mandarin words badly.

你好嗎？( LOL, trying to pretend like aussie assent, because they usually ask HOW ARE YOU before starting a conversation, then we should reply like this ) 我很好，謝謝～

太久沒用華文更新了，漸漸得變得有點生疏了

還記得嗎？最新的華語更新post也是N個月前

我記得很清楚，因為那時是我們第一次也是最後一次的當真真的姐妹

以前的我，是個常被人稱為『胖女孩』的小孩 ( but it still happen now )

可是我過得很開心，也許那時無知還很單純

時間久了，慢慢地長大了，原來才會發現，世界真的很大，大的無法想像

信任只是一種『暱稱』，它不曾在這麼繁忙的人群-世界裡展出

因為它只是一個人類稱為特別的『暱稱』

可是，現在的我，慢慢從這繚亂與繁忙的人群裡，認識了這『暱稱』

N年前的傷口，不管再怎麼膩補也好，破了還是破了

雖然自己已想盡辦法填補自己心裡那道很傷很傷的疤痕

可是再怎麼完美的填補，回憶還是留下了

Feel like a little E-M-O

最近在布斯理本的生活很簡單，簡單到自己也不懂怎麼過完一天

這裡的生活，讓我學會了守時 ( Because i have to catch my train, that's why )

馬來西亞的生活，我覺得自己有那麼點的懶散

從來不曾真真的守時，每次和姐妹們的聚會，想都別想，我肯定是THE NUMBER LAST到

或許是因為地方很小的關係，總覺得路程不會很遠

相反的在這裡，我學會了亂花錢

無論如何，在馬來西亞從來不捨得帶多錢出門

總會覺得錢都會被我花光，出門都只帶 RM10-RM30

可是在這裡，錢包裡只有澳幣40都會嫌不夠用

不過再怎麼盡量得省錢，錢還是一樣悄悄地溜走了

也不會說聲BYE, 只會說HI

以上的商品時昨天買的，沒工作嘛

看到那包紅色的小盒子不？

就因為那包slim noodle我花了澳幣10.95，換算馬幣RM33+

我的天～～～～～

因為我是打電話到店裡order take away然後才去pick up

電話裡的staff是個男生，所以有點拍射問價錢

所以就沒問了，誰知去換錢的時候，那麼貴

就因為那6樣小東西已經花了我不少馬幣

倒在碟裡看起來蠻多的，可是還是會吃不飽

總的來說，那$10.95我大概可以買4裡芒果了

而且還能吃得很飽+不肥

昨天買的芒果有點爛，因為我選最便宜的那個

家附近的fruit shop賣平常的芒果一粒要$3.99，一粒而已哦

市價都是2粒$5不然就是$2.99/each

不想把錢花在芒果上，所以還是選了2裡$3的

Took this picture an hour ago while waiting for my mum to online.

I feel like a little bitchy as my face is naked.

ALRIGHT! TIME TO SLEEP!

GOODNIGHT! HAVE A WONDERFUL DREAM!

Yeah, i'm back

2010-11-20T07:11:00.000-08:00

Yeah, finally I’m back! I had left my blog alone for over a month. Just have a short update here as I don’t know what to write.

Firstly, I have to shout as loud as I can. PMR is eventually over! Y-E-A-H! It’s great, I was so stress and it let me felt like the world was almost end before I sat for the huge examination. However, the same feeling has come over me again. I have to sit for another bigger, more important examination next month. It is so affected for my future and even the exam standard is not my level. So, I will try my best to take it as easy as I can.

Secondly, I miss my family, sweeties and friends. They are awesome! I miss my mum the most. I know, she must be very lonely the days without me. Oooh~

For mum,

Sorry mum, I broke your heart last few days ago. I really want you to know that, I really really want to achieve my dream even though it only a small possibility. I will loss all the things that I have now, for my future. I know that. But this is what I want, I want it for my future, I want it for my life. I am so impress for those people who are born in a rich family and born to be a CEO. Unfortunately, I’m not them. I have to work hard to get to that level, all by myself. I know it’s a bit hard for you, but mum, trust me, I will do it and make all of you proud of me one day.

The most important is succeed

2010-09-11T10:38:00.000-07:00

My mum always tells me that work hard is not only for now, but it is for my future. When i am young, i not really agree with that. I mean, i do not take it serious. But now, i do because i felt it.

Ya, when i have done something well, i felt succeed. As that, i love it. For now, i mean for now, the only thing i want to focus at is SUCCEED in anything. No matter is study, business, whatever, the only thing i want is SUCCEED. No more others.

The way to succeed is not as easy as we think. I just read something about Steve Jobs. He had been a long long journey to reach the destination. Imagine, how he passed them previously? Jobs said, ‘how can u get fired from a company you started?' when he was fired from Apple. He started the company, but he was fired from his company too. Later, he does not forsake and started a new company. At once, he went back to Apple again.

In spite of, he is not as rich as Bill Gates is but he does overtake Bill Gates as well. He created Macintosh which it was the first commercially successful pc to feature a mouse and graphical user interface rather than command-line interface. Imagine~ what a big success.

I went to aus last year and guess what i found out was, most of the people there are using iphone instead of blackberry, nokia, sony or whatever. There's a big amount. Imagine the big success of Apple. Unlike others, Apple has its own graphic and designs, from mac to iphone.

Alright, at last but not least, the only i want to tell is i want to be like him. I mean be the CEO of Apple. Can i? It seems like a small possibility but i will try it even starting from the lowest lowest level. I must be crazy~

Well, sleep time.

Goodnight

Full Stop means end?

2010-09-09T09:49:00.000-07:00

Before, i scared the end of the year, for some reasons. But now, it seems like a good news for me! I dont know do i really mean it or just the way i lie my self as the truth is actually not as i think. Gonna disappear soon~ wowww, that is another new life anyway.

It might be another new life without it even i am still standing at the same place looking foward for some ridiculous hopes that actually i am just lying myself. It sounds more ridiculous. I knew it. I thought it. I said it. So, i decided to move. But? Where can i move? Lots of query appear in my mind in a sudden. Oh~ still the same.

I, really really want to know what is that. Is that any meaning behind it or just for fun? I, think and think. Am i right? At last, no answer~

Ya, i know it had passed. But, who knows it still can be happened right? I'm waiting for the day, an important day for me. I know, it will be a sad case. I know, there will be lots of tears. However, i will be there always, always and always.

I, do really really really apperciate those moment. Ya, I'm really. For oftentimes, i thought them when i'm sad, lazy or in a bad mood situation. I thought them. At the time, i was full of strength.

No words to describe. No sentences to describe. But the only is, the way i feel. Ya, feeling. Human has a kind out of ordinary feeling within humans. Indescribable feeling~ They appeal to each other, sometimes. But, sometime not.

Well, im going to study as it already 12 48AM.

By the way, SELAMAT HARI RAYA to all my muslim friends.

GOODNIGHT

Im back!

2010-08-27T09:22:00.000-07:00

Finally, im back~!! Omg, i do not know what i have done within this month til i do not log in to my blog for a long time~ Uh huh uh huh, i come here of course with some reasons~

Trial 2~~~~!!!!! Arg, im kinda sad of that~ However that's a little improvement for my sejarah and geography, but my ENGLISH and SCIENCE are like SHIT

Im not that happy for the two subjects which i never expect to get A within my life, except for this trial. Cause i do really put a lot of effort on them. So, im not that happy for getting such a result, as that for me it's MUST BE!

I do not know why my english is getting worse and worse even i read a lot of english passages. OMG~ how can i continue my life if my english is such a shit mark. I will confuse about the answers when im doing those pratices, maybe that's one of the reason.

Well, there is another 38days to go for the REAL PMR! How can i get my KH and Malay for good results huh?The worst part is my Malay. I do not ever expect that i can get B or even C for it~ It sucks man~! By the way, as the PMR is around the corner so it's mean 2011 is coming soon too!!

Awwwuu~ im getting nearer to the way to archieve my ceo DREAM. Maybe some people might think that it's just a child's thinking. I mean child like 3yrs old saying non-sense matter. But, I'm really TAKE SERIOUS about my ambition. I study hard now, hence i can get to the TOP university. Starting to gain experiences from communicate and work, so that i will not waste a lot of time because of these. The main CEO condition is experience, without at least 5 or 10 years experiences, no one would think that you/re able to assumption this HUGE job~

Trying to prove this to everyone who ever look down on me and my mum. Thanks mum, always push me forward. Im glad i have a such best mum.

Alright, nitez nitez~

I have the greatest mum ever

2010-07-23T09:30:00.000-07:00

Nothing to do - went to edit the pic

Well, i know i talked about my mum before this, but what i found out that she is REALLY REALLY a AWESOME~FANSTATIC~GREATEST mum ever! She not as pretty as others' mum, do not has a prefect body shape but she does try and a lot which i jelous on my friends~

Today, i only realize that i'm a lucky daughter who have a such mum. LOL~ i can feel that my mum is totally proud of herself as she has the best daughter at her side. Along her life, be with her whenever she is lonely, make her laugh and smile.

I know, my family do love me much and i apperciate it as i can. I will not pretend how much i love them but i will make them to feel proud a day and that's my love for them. Besides, i know what im choosing for my future now, even myself dont know whether can i make it well but at least i will try my BEST AND BESTIEST to archieve.

By the way, we just finished the papers yesterday. I felt stress among the days, i try my best to read as much as i can but i feared that i cant do it well. But now it's kinda alright as the exam had passed.

Alright, waiting badly for the results. Hope that will not be any D or C for me.

放手也許是最好的選擇

2010-07-18T05:04:00.000-07:00

唔~ 好久沒寫華語了

心血來潮的說

突然想到了很多東西

握在手裡的東西並非屬於永久

或許還單純的我們曾經想過

我們一起笑的，說的，玩的，看的，想的，唱的，

已經屬於past tense了

頓時放手或許是最好的選擇

因為我們都已經長大了

該有各自的未來了

還小的我們，經過了許許多多不該犯的錯

原因只有那時候還小，還單純，還幼稚

不過現在長大了

是時候該有自己的主見了

想回過去，只有一句

‘ 做麼會醬啊？ ’

只有知錯能改

沒人還會再責備你

知錯不改

那只是你活該

後果再來的時候，沒人能幫的了你

當然，放手是一定的

不過最好是曾早

因為我們領悟了什麼是‘該’與’不該‘

慶幸還來得及的說

所以不感到有任何的’後悔‘

我很訝異為什麼連學校的老師的消息能那麼快

不過最訝異的是老師也舉手說好

難道連老師也感覺到了嗎？

不一樣的話題變成了一種距離

漸漸地距離也越來越遠

至到看不見

不一樣的生活成了一種話題性

很明顯得是隔著冰山與火海

這就是之間的’距離‘

以上的並無指著誰來說

只是一些消遣性的文章

July first post

2010-07-13T08:35:00.000-07:00

Wow again~ i have left my blog to dead for a month!! Amazing man~ how mean am i~ that's not the point actually.. absolutely~ as an active person, i did a lot among the time.. so i think am going to post it one by one?

ALRIGHT~ first of all, we had our lame ''KOPERASI DAY'' on the last last Sunday.. seriously it's not kinda lamn, SOME of the food are nice.. but only SOME we went to the ''RUMAH HANTU'' as well.. haha~I thought it will be boring but it's out of my expectation anyway.. we brought the camera in and took some pics with the ghost~ LOL, i think that was the purpose we went in there..

LOL~ this the pic by the way.. i think we will be the first person who took pics when visiting to the RUMAH HANTU..

OMGG~ i was sweating like HELL.. we waited for an hour just because of the visit.. DAMN~

Oh yeah~ we also had our anniversary dinner at Tiara as well.. pretty fun anyway~ but we thought it will be more people but.. aikz~ it a sad case huh.. however i was quite happy.. i make up myself alone.. i mean i did it all by myself.. it's a FIRST try in my life, kinda proud of that. But i found that it was not that success~ it's eyelash's fault! I bought the wrong eyelash.. aikz.. but what can i do..

It's 6:10AM now

2010-06-17T15:03:00.000-07:00

Well, am having 3 weeks holidays now. Wuu~ enjoyed the days not that well. Went for KK to shop and spent a lot there.OMGG~ pmr first trial exam is coming soon, it's a super sad case > i havent start any revision yet. Oh yeah~ im exactly broke this month. Well, im super serious now. I spent the most in this month in my life. Camera > Skin Care > Clothes > Cosmetics..

Actually i had typed this post a few days ago, but as my laziness, im lazy to continue and i found that there is nothing to say about recently. The same things appeared and of course the same minds appeared without any preparation. I just cant stop that DAMN STUPID DUMPY DUMPY feel. I thought i forgot all about that, but it appeared in my minds in a sudden again.

Anyway, i found something new among these days. HUII~ im quite proud of myself, my guessing is CORRECT. Well, if you cant really forget that just take those to the future. I trust it's only time problems.

Besides that, i cant focus on my study now, once i face anything, the same things appeared in my minds and tears fall 'AUTOMATICALLY'? At the time, i dont know what im doing.

I thought i forget all about the past, but actually im not? Oh yeah~ that's right too, I'm regret~ if time can be reverse, i wont choose the way. I dont know why will i keep thinking on the past, maybe it was hurted deeply.

LOL~ i was like telling everyone about my past without any ''privacy''. It's actually not, i just try to share those unhappy thingy with my blog so that i wont be so tight. But, it doesnt help out huh. I almost post the same things in every posts. HAHA, just ignore about that.

By the way, Monday will be the 1st day of 2nd semester. So i have promised myself that i gonna forget
all bout that and focus on study & money. No more others. HAHA~ *thumb up for me~!

COME ON! Oh yeah~ i think im falling in love with KOBE. Muah goodness, he was married!! How sad huh. However, GO LAKERS! GO CENA!

My ECHO

2010-05-27T08:12:00.000-07:00

WuuMyGod~ time past extremely fast! very very fast~ well, did a lot of things among these few weeks.. so am going to update those now..

First of all.. eventually i bought the camera yesterday and i named it ECHO~ someone exactly will think that im crazy why would i named a camera..LOL~ eventhough it's only a simple camera but it's pretty meaningful for me.. and ECHO..im ur mummy now! haha~

By the way, im broke this month~ no money for shopping..gosh~!

Im tired now

BYE

Happy Birthday To Myself

2010-05-06T08:16:00.000-07:00

Wow~ time gone extremely FAST! Well, this year i past my birthday happily, without worrying too much. It's good and that's what i want actually. Eventhough i do not get any birthday wish from someone who i really really hope for, but at least i past it happily and it much better than last 2 years.

No present for me this year! How sad~

I'm suffering these few days and im worrying almost the same matter everyday. 'How could i be like this?' i asked myself everytimes. And my mind told me that 'This might be the only chance and dont miss it, Paula!' Arg~ once the end of the year is coming nearly, i feel fear about it and mind tells me the same thing again. It's a complicated feel that no one can understand it. How i wish there is a person who can tell me what should i do now~

I'm lost in the jungle now! aikz.. alright~ let's say about others. Oh yeah~ i was addicted in bsb recently, eventhough i play very very NOOB~ I have to play it well!! I join bsb not only because of myself, there's another reason. I have thought this for a long time, and eventually i make the mind. Once i think this, i feel down in a sudden.

Alright~ till then.

Goodnight~

Arg~ exhausted!

2010-04-16T09:24:00.000-07:00

Well, just have a simply update here. It feels something wrong if i leave my blog dead too long. Arg~ time gone so fast.

Last Friday, went to Delyn's house for Geo project. Taken without lens~ wow~ Actually, i thought i can did the project seriously. But as my habit, i only done a dapatan kajian sentence. Haha~ i prefer do it alone so that i can put more effort and serious on it. I was the only one who came late.

Celabrated my mum's birthday last week. Update later.

Goodnight!

What a busy life, but hope it is going on

2010-04-04T01:31:00.000-07:00

Hi everyone! LOL~ well, i have left my blog dead for a few weeks, nearly a month i think? I always remind myself it's time to update my lovely blog, but once i type, i dont know what should i write and straight away click 'X'. Haha~ not only because of my laziness, it is also because of im so so busy. I mean like extremely busy? I face numerous of numbers, alphabets, pictures and ''chinese words''at school and even at home everyday. Really everyday~ My brain is almost BOOM!

Well, get in the point now. Currently, im suffering for a lot a lot of matters. Buisness, homeworks, school projects, studies, hair, my diet plan, mum's birthday.... and a lot

First, im planning to upgrade my buisness. But, the only problem is there are so much impediment. It makes my plan cant move on. I was trying to apply my Maybank ATM for maybank2u online banking application, so that i can check and make all the transactions by online. Actually everyone who is 18ages above can apply through atm machine easily, but because of im under age, the atm machine rejects me everytime. Hell ya, why those adults and even machines always look down on teenagers huh? Anyway, im not that kind of person who give up easily, so i went to the registration counter and request for the application. Arg~ the officer's reply make me want to cry. Aikz..

Second, my studies! Arg~ my brains is getting to BOOM! Well, i got my monthly test results couple weeks ago. Suck~! no more words to describe. Eventhough i found out that there is a little improvement, but the marks are not what i targeted. My english and math drop a lot and i aslmost cry for that. And yet, the form3 math is getting harder and harder. Im wondering can i do it well especially my engslish. Aikz~ it seems like after a trip to Aus doesnt get any improvement for my english on the contrary it becomes worse and worse. However, i will try to work harder in my studies. LOL

Third, my mum's birthday is comming soon! This Saturday~ well i never celebrate her birthday for 15years. Wow~ mean since i was born till now. Cheers. It's really a long time, so im deciding to celebrate her birthday this year. About present? Actually i plan to buy a Coach Bag for my mum since last year, but i just remember my mum's birthday on March, so it is not enough time to get a coach now. Add on, it has no any branch at kk. So sad~ Channel, gucci or even LV is too too expensive. I can afford for that. I found out that Coach is the most beneficial branded bag. The price is reasonable and the design is different every season. So, am bothering for my mum's present and also the expenses~ Aikz..

The last and the most important is > i have no enough time. Seriously i need 48hours a day. Really~ My time is occupied. I have to do that do this.. and once i done, a day have past, it is getting to another 24hours. Aikz..somemore i havent pack the stocks yet, need to work for another hour. Sometime, it's already 1 o'clock in the morning when i really done all things. But luckily my mum help me a lot otherwise i have no time to sleep. Thanks mum! *kiss~ Haha

Alright~ got to go to continue my works.

I have spent an hour for this

Bubye

My days being in AUS

2010-03-18T05:04:00.000-07:00

Well, i forget which day do i went to Dreamworld. So just have a simply update here. Haha~

I was like excited when im going to Dreamland which is located in Gold Coast.

I had waited for this for a couple years..

Yeah! A place which can also help to relax yourself here.

Anyway, seriously i recommend this place for those teenager who likes stimulation!

Haha~ i think i was eating a chicken or a nudget?

Anyway, that's not my point.

Yeah~! There's 'The Claw' behind me. Definitely it is horrible.

Should have a try when you're going to such a place like Dreamland

Im getting fatter and fatter while im staying in AUS..had suffer everyday

My god~! I tried to control myself but it doenst work.

Just cant stop eating those yummy yummy meals.

Do you saw the tall 'tiang' behind The Claw?

Haha! That's funny~ me and my uncle had waited for that about nearly an hour.

It spend us a lot of time because of it.

But it's worth! Haha~

I thought of couple when i saw the ferris wheel from far

It's really a wonderful place for couple. I would hope to go there with my partner one day

Haha~ feel childish

Alright..it's really really a nice place! The scenery of Queensland!

Watch what are their life at night of these Ang Mo Kao

So that's why i decided to ride on this ferris wheel at night

Im looked fat!! Extremely fat!

Just ignore about my body~ I know it's fat

Well, do you trust that those are mushroom?

Real mushroom! Haha

We went to the ART MUSEUM on that day, i learn a lot of knowledges there.

Not that many, but at least a little.

Really, a lot a lot of things that cannot be find in Malaysia.

So that's y it's a KNS country

Fat!! Well, saw those little men behind me?

Haha~ i was shocked when i saw that, it's really a creative idea.

Haha..but it's meaningful!

cute cute

Chubby! My aunt's lovely pet.

It reaally a cute puppy. The first animal that i do not feel fear with

I was shocked too when i saw it.

Chubby~

Haha..actually it will be more cute..but because of it cut its hair so look different

A faked-bear puppy!

By the way, going to have a nap now

Bubye~!

Tired

2010-03-13T22:16:00.000-08:00

Eventhough we had finished our exam..but i still feel tired this few days~ dont know why it is.. anyway i have to bear of these though it's hard. I thought it will not happen again, but my thinking is wrong. I should make the preparation earlier. Anyway, it's alright. I have faced this not the first time and also not the second. It only leaves a year, i have to bear no matter how hard is that. After PMR, i will get my freedom back and leave the place. Yes! I can do it.

Well, that's not my point. Being nice to a person that dislike you doesnt mean u're defeated, it only simply means that you still have some respect left for the person. I'm agree that! Fight doesnt mean anything, why dont we just smile and face the truth? I know it's hard, but at least you are not making yourself down.

A post

2010-03-12T06:06:00.000-08:00

哈哈，今天學校大掃除

不錯不錯

蠻多免費的食物吃

跳過～

經過這幾天的觀察，終于得到了結論

沒錯!

我想說的是：

我不想再吵，就算吵了還是一樣

你討厭，你喜歡還是什么的

隨你愛怎樣就怎樣

我會笑，并且那也是我的答案

就算你不爽，我還是會做我自己

因為那才是真實的我

我覺得我沒那個必要為了你不喜歡而改變原來的自己

我真的答應我自己，我不會再哭

因為我知道，我自己在做些什么

我不知道為什么會突然變成這樣

不過批評也不是一件好的事情

我不想再FB，MSN還是Blog里吵

也不想當面吵

還是想想現在的自己該做些什么在再批評

不然你真的沒那個資格

難聽的話省了吧，人沒有十全十美

而且最近很多事情發生，夠了吧？

我明白你曾經有過這樣的感受

適可而止～

ps:/

i know what i wrote now will be what happen next

but i think if i keep silent, things will be worse

stop it please..dont you think that's immature thinking?

however, i will face you with the truth of me

if u hate it, just hate it

dont make those silly things and for me that useless

and the last

i would like to say what i do that's my right

Aikz~ i dont feel sad when i wrote this but it's tired

really tired!

It's only a moment

2010-03-10T08:47:00.000-08:00

Well, am super free today! We just finished our monthly test. HAHA. Feel nothing to do and it's time to update my lovely blog. Well, i cant do well in Math and Science. So i think my results definitely will be very very super terrible. However, i will try my best to fight for PMR and even my future.

I felt that everyone in this world is changing themself every seconds. We cant predict what will happen next, but at least we have the preparation for the challenge. Once the challenge is given, try to do the best no matter is that important. Dont mad when people judge good or bad on you, maybe that's a way to motivate yourself.

I really care about what people comment on me before, i mean like extremely. But once i think back now, why should i? No one is perfect in this world. What can you do if people commented bad on you? Nothing! The only you get is you're making youself annoying.

Well, it's late now.

Going to have my beauty sleep

Goodnight

Text!!

2010-03-07T06:15:00.000-08:00

Oh My God~ tomorrow will be my first monthly test!! WTH~ i havent prepare anything yet and what i worry now is my face's tone. I cant even concentrate in my study. Arg~! Am suffering now. But at least i read all the History BAB1 and understand what's the topic talking about. Im regret to attend the sport day, eventhough i didnt join any activity on that day, but my skin was getting darker. Im wondering why..Isnt my skin is too too sensetive? This time is the 2nd time that im suffering about my skin's tone. Anyway, it only a little dark and yet it not sunburn. So, im quite lucky. And the most most i feel im lucky is, i was reserved for my team pembarisan! Haha~ oh thanks god!

Alright~ need to continue my geo~

Goodnight!

Another new starter?

2010-03-03T07:33:00.000-08:00

Erm..CNY had passed and it is another starter again. I'm quite satisfy with my CNY holidays eventhough just celebrated only a few days with my dearly friends. I enjoyed my shopping very much. Haha.. so that's why i satisfy. The last day of FEB was the day of 'chap goh meh'. And again we had gambling at my house at the afternoon, continue 'chap goh mei' at night. Actually it is pretty tired. Dont know why i cant sleep well and get up very early in the morning during those days.

LOL~Am trying to show my teeth, but what i got is like.. erm..hard to decribe.Haha~ so i was force to modify a pig's nose to cover the part of my teeth. And the conclusion is, i found out that after been modified, it is quite suitable and cute. Haha..i mean the pinky pig's nose. Oh yeah~ i took those pictures during on the way to 'chap goh mei' in gg's car. It was a little dark so we decided to use the flash light and the pictures are not that bad.

Erm.. i thought something in a sudden just now.LOL~ last few days i was thinking too too too much about some impossible things and when i think back now, it seems so ridiculous.

Alright~ i'm not an idiot or a stupid person. I saw and i trusted what i saw. If you are trying to laugh at a person and trying to give an explaination, make sure you are smart. Erm..what i said do not mean that im saying myself is smart or what.

ps: im not saying who, but just try to give some advices.

Well, am going to sleep.

Goodnight!

My CNY

2010-02-25T09:43:00.000-08:00

15th February 2010 初二

Due to the light problem, my face looks not that clearly.

Well,

Me and my family went to KK for holidays by ferry.

So far, the ferry was like pretty crowded.

Some of them were sitting on the floor.

What the~

How could they?

They paid RM5 and what they got is sitting on the floor.

That's not FAIR!

16th February 2010 初三

Erm..

Im not that really remember what i did on this day.

Oh yeah~

In the morning, went to 'bye bye' with my cousins at the temple.

And after that went to 1B shopping.

Wuuyeah!

And yupz..i had my oldtown there.

My favourite~

17th February 2010 初四

Ya!!

Went to Mount Kota Kinabalu which named as ''shen shan'' in mandarin.

(God Mountain)?

But it was a return trip and decided suddenly.

Actually we suppose to be went there on the next day and stay a night at Perkasa,

but as my grandpa decision

we cant stay there.

Damn~

On the way to Tampuruli, what a nice river view.

We went to have a look at the memorial park near Ranau.

That's a story about Sandakan British war, if im not mistaken.

Who read Form 2 BM novel will know about the story.

Erm~

If im not mistaken, entitled is 'Limpahan Sungai...'

Something like that..

I look fatter in this photo.

OMG~!

It was a letter which was written by someone.

It's quite touch because it was written to the person's wife,

if im not mistaken.

But unfortunately, this guy died during the Sandakan...

forget what name is that

Wow..

It doesnt look like memorial park rite?

I was thinking that i can take my wedding photogarphy there.

And yeah~

That's a couple did that too.

Went to Perkasa Hotel and have a look there.

It's pretty sa kai rite?

Hey!Reply ya!

2010-02-22T07:05:00.000-08:00

规则：

① 被点者请在自己的网志上打上答案

② 请传给另外十个人

③ 传阅人请在这十位被点的人的留言板上通知他，他被点咯!

④ 这当中的十位不得拒绝

⑤ 被点者请注明被谁点了在哪里接到再传给下十位

⑥ 这些被点者，如不回复那就代表欠我PAULA HO一餐哦

⑦ 可以回点哦，并且愿望会实现和得到幸福

坐上幸福热气球，

开始咯

幸福热气球：第一阶段

① 绰号：Paula

② 星座：金牛

③ 生日：5月3日

④ 兴趣：賺錢吧

⑤ 血型：不懂～

⑥ 最宝贵的东西：小時候的回憶

⑦ 最討厭的东西：動物！

幸福热气球：第二阶段

① 有喜欢的人吗：哈哈，很確定沒有～

② 有交往吗：天會塌下

③ 幸福吗：我嗎？幸福啊

④ 他很爱你吗：不可能

⑤ 如果你有勇气最想是什么：LOL～和他告白（Kidding）

幸福热气球：第三阶段

① 你被谁点：慧，雯，憶

② 他是你的谁：她們是我的姐妹

③ 他的个性是：大家的個性都想女人，因為大家本來就是女人

④ 他长得怎样：她們都很美啊

⑤ 跟他认识多久：慧&雯 = 今年7年了吧憶 = 認識今年3年了

⑥ 你想跟他说什么：我們大家一起努力做個有前途的美女吧

① 最爱的音乐：好多，不過最喜歡應該是We still believe & Make it Through The rain. 雖然沒問為什么，可是我想介紹大家這2首。因為都很有意義!

② 最爱的季节：下雪

③ 最爱的卡通：Power Puff Girl?

④ 最爱的颜色：灰，黑，白，黃

⑤ 最想去的国家：Dubai!!Milan!!Japan!!

⑥ 最爱的水果：Mango the most

⑦ 最爱的饮料：Mango Juice

⑧ 最爱的人：LOL~

幸福热气球：第五阶段

① 你很爱哭吗：希望接下來的日子都不哭

② 你很爱笑吗：還好吧？我笑起來牙齒很丑

③ 你是很有信心的人吗：嗯？

④ 你想要怎样的生活：希望是現在的家境10倍，不過要幸福。CEO!!

⑤ 你喜欢自己吗：No

⑥ 你喜欢音乐吗：喜歡

⑦ 你喜欢体育吗：Absoluteky not

⑧ 你喜欢跳舞吗：Yeah~

⑨ 你很专情吗：HOHO~?haha

⑩ 你喜欢睡觉吗：Exactly!!

⑾ 你喜欢唱歌吗：還好～

福热气球：第六阶段

开始点名

1.Adelyn

2.李凱玲

3.沈慧億

4.Amanda

5.李美慧

6.鄭慧雯

7.微仙

8.小晶

9.曾婷

10.??

「五号跟谁谈恋爱」處于單色，不過記著我說的哦～哈哈

「一号是男的还是女的」女的啦

「六号人很好吗」很好

「二号很色吗］無可否認

「七号跟三号在一起吗」如果是，我會真心祝福畢竟是真心相愛

「八号是单身吗」不是

「十号喜欢一号吗」我不知道誰是10號

「五号读那间学校」和我同校

「六号喜欢谁」她男朋友

「二号喜欢唱歌吗」非常，而且非常好聽

「你爱七号吗] 當然愛啊（姐妹愛）

「三号住哪」同一個島上

「十号跟你告白」我會當場暈倒，然后和他說''Yes,i do'' haha~

「四号有宠物吗」有

如果你有三个愿望，Tell me your wish :

①我的CEO夢想實現

②家人&姐妹都相處得很好

③PMR As~!!

Happy New Year And Happy Valentine Day

2010-02-14T11:07:00.000-08:00

Huhu~ i just done the video just now. Oh finally, it was done. I spend a lot of time on the editor. Happy New Year And Valentine Day and also Happy Birthday to those who was born today. LOL~ this year Valentine Day i celebrate by myself, but it's alright. Single or Double is the same~ that's not much difference for me.

Alright~jing,meihui,amanda,sien,yvonne,guoguang and xiao en came to my house this evening, about 4++ and we had gambling~ Wow, i lose a lot~ Then, we went out for dinner about 7++ and there was something terrible happened. Oh~ anyway forget about it.

Will upload the video next time, something wrong with the techinical problem ya.

Goodnight~!

因為怕，才會有這樣的感覺

2010-02-10T07:24:00.000-08:00

我想回憶下之前的自己，那個真實的自己

不知道是否屬于真實，可是自己覺得很真實

剛剛review回之前的posts

我很喜歡這句

“我不需要谁的陪伴也能过得很好
尽管也只是孤单的自己
向目标的道路上努力
寻找下一步的途径
这才是最好的
就算表面上再好，那也只是华丽的表面
这华丽也撑不久”

对！我不需要谁的陪伴也能过得很好

尽管只有自己一个人在努力

想目标的道路上前进

寻找下一步的途径

我常告诉自己不管做任何事情或发生任何事情

只要想着坚强与坚持

就是给自己最大的推动力

事情还没结束不能放弃

因为或许前方有太多的人等着你完成

我，因为怕因此才会有太多太多的猜测

不过或许这是对的

这几天真的有太多太多的事情发生了

复杂的心情，绷紧的身体

很累～

越想靠近，就越被伤害得更深

认为，有个距离也好

毕竟自己不属于那样的世界

真心話嗎？

2010-02-06T06:08:00.000-08:00

感覺自己長大了，擁有著固定的目標。

最近領悟到了一些事情。

假如有一天，沒了明天，

我會后悔或遺憾沒做到什么嘛？

每一個人都盼望著接下來的每一天，

害怕哪天或許哪一秒永遠永遠就這樣閉著雙眼再也起不來了。

沒人能猜測下一秒會發生什么事情，

或許是地震，又或許是海嘯。

這就是世界，生活。

只所以，我覺得寫blog是一種永恒的回憶。

雖然時光不能倒流，不過我們能記錄時光。

哪怕有一天某個人消失了，至少他沒帶走所有的回憶。

自己一個人也能活的很好

雖然是孤單，不過比煩惱好得多

我很愛面子，真的很愛

是一般人的2倍吧

我很自戀，真的很自戀

也是一般人的2倍瓜

不過，自戀是我唯一尋樂的方法

不是真心的自戀而是以娛樂心態說出來

我不知道是否在那瞬間說‘是’

不過我覺得那樣也只是我另外尋樂的方法

并無任何意義

但是，不知怎么了害怕自己纏上了
應該是太于明顯了吧

好了，心情很down

Yeah Baby

2010-02-05T03:47:00.000-08:00

Yeah baby~ i'm back.. nothing special for this whole week.

Just a simple post.

Well, i absent to school for this whole week due to because a little emergency.

Alright~ that's all

Goodnight

Yeah

2010-01-23T08:02:00.000-08:00

Yeah~ woke up in the early morning and went to school. It feels suck when staying at school and doing nothing there. It is wasting our valuable time. LOL~ Well, went to uk with my my\um after the school session and had 2 bowls of spaghetti there. A large and a small one. Wow~ arg~ i felt sorry to my diet plan at the moment. Sorry~

Alright~ went back home and took a bath. I spend a lot of time on choosing cloth. LOL~ dont laugh me that. Then, went to the temple and meet ling them at pink lady. At last, went to uk with von and sienz. Arg~ my XX not there. I was quite down when i knew that. I expected that he will be there but.. aikz..anyway i have another bowl of spaghetti there. Wow~ what a good day i had~

Goodnight~

Sien and Von~ Sorry

I knew that both of you had ready for the pose

But, my camera only want me.

Try harder next time hor~ LOL!

Another Day

2010-01-22T06:47:00.000-08:00

Wow~ what a super tired day. I slept for a few hours after came back from the school and wake up at 3pm. Took a bath and ready to go out. Well, at first we went to Millemewah to look for those new year stuffs and went to clinic bakti. Arg~ the dentist seem not that happy and impolite. Something wrong with her i think. Alright~ went back home at the end.

Erm.. actually there is no point. But, i felt happy when the post was done by me.

Omg~ someone said that my face is not suitable with my body. Alright~ i know that im not that slim, but i will try my best eventhough i failed my diet plan everytime. Just wait and look!!

You will regret to say this!!

Goodnight~

Tired

2010-01-20T06:20:00.001-08:00

好久没post华语了，有点不习惯

40分钟前，刚从补习回来。今天超累的～

来张素颜的照片吧，也就是刚要上床睡觉的时候。

没戴lens的我，眼睛看起来小了好多哦。

Alright~ skip~

今天早上没人肯等我的XX，自己又不想一个人等着

就和她们一起回去了，只差那5mins。

不过今天放学的时候终于给我看到了。

Oh yeah~ eventually

样子始终还没变

今天又是另外一年的''merentas desa''

Wow~ tired man

不过还好，幸苦还是会有回报的

Alright~ im getting tired and tired

going to sleep now.

Nitez~

A song for me

2010-01-19T07:04:00.000-08:00

Yoohoo~ im back~! Nothing to write for this few days. Arg~ there are a lot a lot of homeworks recently. What the hell~ Oh no~ i cant imagine how can it be after Chinese New Year.

Anyway, i'm having complex mood right now. Im wondering why it is. The pic is definitely had been edited. The power of photo editor. Awesome~

Goodnight~

Books, You and $ only

2010-01-15T07:49:00.000-08:00

Well, it's Friday today and it is going to another week. cheers~ so fast. Mood is not really well this few days, told myself act everything in front of eyes as fake. And with this, it is a little bit better. So far, i think im falling love with my school life. Eventhough it is sucks but it helps me a lot. Erm.. anyway~ if it is in a new enviroment it might be better and i think it will be more enjoyable than now.

Alright~ searched a lot a lot of clothes this whole week. Wow, they all are what i wanted for but thinking for $$. Arg~ can have them only in dream. Hell, my english is getting worse and worse after came back from aus. Speak too much mandarin and malay here. Hope my english pronounce still maintain the same.

By the way, had changed the song in the playlist just now.

Goodnight~

A suck school life

2010-01-10T06:09:00.000-08:00

Well~ nothing to write for this whole week. Maybe because of it turned to school life, life gone constantly and the same. Go to school in the early morning >> back from school and have a nap >> tuition >> online >> sleep. By the way, i start my tuition class next week. Argh~ no more freedom.

Struggling this few days~! Arg~ am wondering why it is. It sucks~ Alright, had edited my blogger just now. Wow, spend a few hours for it. WTH~ eventually it done.

Goodnight

First Day of School

2010-01-04T04:06:00.000-08:00

Arg~ the first day of school. Dont know why isnt the feel was so weird. Tell myself that try to diligent to past a day. No matter what thing happen. Sometimes ignorant is also a kind of happiness. Yupz~! I have to make myself happier and wont down anymore. wuhaha~ cheers!
Anyway, silence is the best and i will try to change myself into ignorant and silence.~ Yeah~! I can make it.

1/04/2010
Written By Paula
Sunny Day
08:19PM

First and the last

2010-01-02T08:05:00.000-08:00

Yoo~ today went out again. LOL~ exactly had a lot of fun.. Thanks ya guys~!! Arg~ i think my mum wont let me out again. Argh~!!

ps: i love the pic..it was taken the day after i came back from AUS~yoyo

Goodnight~

The first day of 2010

2010-01-01T07:07:00.000-08:00

Yoyo~ a nice day for 2010. Thanks guys~ really apperciate it. A best new year~ LOL~
Well, anyway thanks for everything ya.

Goodnight~

Last For 2009

2009-12-30T23:15:00.001-08:00

Yoohho~ a few hours more gonna be a new year. Im wondering peoples in the world, actress, actor around the world, what they doing now? Isnt they excited for the coming year? Answer might be ''yes'' or ''no''.

Well, forget about it.

Happy New Year.

By Paula,
20091231 15:29P.M
Wrote down the last moment for 2009.

Unfortunely, what i wrote this afternoon are not the last moment for 2009. Im Back~! After the performance, ate with family and ling came with us. We had planned for the rest time. But, my mum spoiled our plan. She doesnt let me out. What The Hell. Send ling back and went back home. Jing called me and asked me whether can i go to her home. Argh~ i have no transport and absolutely my mum doesnt let me to go.

Im sad and tears fall~ Not because of cant go out. It is because of i have to celebrate alone again. Happy New Year to myself. Im the one who always be alone. Travel alone, celebrate alone, sad alone.... no one can share with. It's a terrible feeling and exactly no one know it.
After this year, my pressure is getting heavier and heavier. And this the last day for 2009, wondering why is my mum doesnt let me to go out? She always spoils whatever i want. Never feel happy but fear every moment in this family.

Received friends' happy new year wishes just now. LOL~ i hope it's happy too. However, i hope to be not alone again. At least give me someone that i can trust and share my sadness or happiness with her/him. <<>

The end~
Written By Paula
11:55P.M
Happy New Year

I'm back

2009-12-29T11:37:00.000-08:00

Yoyo~ Eventually back to this ''peaceful'' place. LOL~ Alright..had been at KK for 2days. Well, my family doesnt recognised me when i arrvied at the airport. Ridiculous man~ maybe because of my strange look and cloth. Anyway, it felt weird when you smile with someone but the person doesnt greet with you. Argh~ gained weight again. What the hell~

Erm..by the way, went out for MCD this two days after i came back. Absolutely miss the chicken porridge so much. Well, talked and had a lot of fun. Argw~ miss there so so much. Friday will be a new year, 2010. Happy New Year~!! Well, i have make a lot of plan and prepare for the coming years just because of my future dream. A huge huge future dream~ I know myself well, i not really guarantee that i can make it but at least i will try my best and never defeat until the end. Realise a lot of things that i shouldnt know while staying in Aus. Eventhough not so clear, but at least i know what happened. I just realise that why my mum always told me to be tough and dont defeat with tears. Sorry mum~ i'm wrong~ LOL

Well, that are a lot of words that i want to say. Anyway, it's hard to convert into alphabets.
Jing~ the pics u copy from here ya. cheers~ some of the pics i dint upload, too ugly~ LOL~

Last Day

2009-12-23T08:16:00.001-08:00

Well, i just finished packing my luggage and those important things. Today is my last day to being here and of course i have to write about my last day here as a memory.

Erm.. anyway, i have to back to the place again after a week. I have to make a recorrection here, ''i hope i wont back to the place again'' the words that i wrote in my previous post, the place mean school. Well, im sick of that school. Teachers and facilities there are so terrible.So that's why i hate it.

Erm..went to Gold Coast this morning and had my Starbuck drink there. Finally i can have Starbuck at Gold Coast and this was the third time i'm having starbuck in Australia. It's quite proud for myself. I mean it makes me happy a lot.

By the way, we back home at 11++p.m. It's kinda late. Went for late-dinner at Cafe21. Wow~ It's quite a classical place. Those security must be looking on my legs first, because im wearing sandal. Actually, people who wearing sandal cant go in. But maybe mine still look good, not so worst yet.

Going back home tomorrow~ ]
It's a lot, post them up next time
Bye Australia Bye Brisbane Bye Queensland Bye Montezumad

A gift

2009-12-22T07:11:00.000-08:00

Yoyo~ it's tuesday today.. so fast~ well, went for planet 51 this morning. It's boring~ Actually it is a movie for kids. Between, when we went there, i expected that it is a adults' movie. But, what i saw was there were all kids with mum. OMG~ i shouldnt come here. It looks so weird.

Anyway, Jemma gave me a gift today. OMG~i was so surprised. I like the gift so much eventhough it is small. We hug each other and i almost cry. She is the one who takes care me the most. Between, she taught and helped me a lot~

Well, nothing special happen today.